Going back to part-time... not able to handle full-time...

[Aquarelle]

Thanks, Ally

Aparently, it is always good someone different than me or a close friend to hear my voice, so I can have an actual idea what is happening and where I am with doing this...
So, I'll assume, that I sound ok and will just polish the details.

I know my english sounds terrible and I am working on it, but it takes time... 

kate - Yes, I am really out of breath, because I repeated this section like thousand times, before I managed to read it without stuttering


So... confidence... I don't really have got a realizable idea how to achieve it... 

[Allyda]

Thanks, Ally

Aparently, it is always good someone different than me or a close friend to hear my voice, so I can have an actual idea what is happening and where I am with doing this...
So, I'll assume, that I sound ok and will just polish the details.

I know my english sounds terrible and I am working on it, but it takes time... 

kate - Yes, I am really out of breath, because I repeated this section like thousand times, before I managed to read it without stuttering


So... confidence... I don't really have got a realizable idea how to achieve it... 

The first part of it is not giving a flying f___ what other people think. Once you achieve this confidence will come. Hold your head up when you walk also no matter what you hear or whitness. And if someone does misgender you, politely correct them (I have to do this sometimes on the phone only). It works, and the more your gendered correctly the more your confidence will build. Accessories also help such as rings, earrings, necklaces, etc.

Ally

[nickikim]

Basically I cannot go into a falsetto position, because of a damage, I did to my voice during the puberty, due to too much screaming and trying to sing louder and higher, than I my voice could endure... so I am not in a falsetto - just my voice sound like this, for better or worse.
I've just made another sound recording, by the manner I usually speak, just to see if there is any difference with the sample I posted, but my voice sounds the same - it is natural to me and I don't force it to sound like this...

Just in case - here's the new recording (my reading aloud sucks, but it is better, than just improvising something in english...don't judge me): http://vocaroo.com/i/s1Tyhoiy7eEp

I wrecked my voice trying to master a death metal roar, I hurt something in my throat, and  it never got better.
So I share some of your pain.
Is english your first language?

[Aquarelle]

Ally - thanks for the advices - I will follow them gladly

nickikim - I am bulgarian and the english is my second language... beside the several other languages I've been studying and never learned That's why my pronunciation is funny, although I've been told by many native speakers, that my english is pretty good for an eastern-european... I usually don't talk in english the way I did in the last recording, but I was nervous and my tongue was not listening to me at all