So..... Had an interesting conversation.

[Blue Rabbit]

So! I'm sorry for bugging all you lovely people with this but all the people I speak to about my trans stuff are unavailable and I feel like I'm gonna burst for some reason if I don't just talk about this. Even though it's not really a big issue or thing.

So I went out with my mates the other night and one of them has a younger sister around out age, so he brought her. I hit it off with her at the pub and just me and her spoke for a bit. She's very awesome and cute, if I didn't plan on transitioning soon I'd soooooooooo wanna at least try to get to know her better 'n "Stuff" -Wink, wink-

But thats not really the thing I wanted to talk about. Her style is VERY similar to the type of style I want but.... as a male can't have. She is a lot like me so obviously that brings out my dysphoria a wee bit cause she's a woman and like me and thats in short what I want for my self... And I have a lot of female friends but I've never had this sort of conversation with them......

It's hard to explain but I really feel like we were talking about a lot of minor things that come with transitioning and being trans. Not like core topics but things you have to deal with when being trans and if you transition. One minor example I can remember would be wigs. I wouldn't know ANYTHING about wigs unless I planned to transition and my hair was longer. But just a lot of the more minor things that pop up on this site a lot we spoke in detail about. And at no point did she stop and wonder why I knew so much about it even though its very weird I didn't, it was all very smooth and natural.

And the reason this is weird is because I've spoke to my friends who're girls about makeup cause it just comes up every now and then, but this was different it was I guess about "girl stuff" rather than male stuff...... But because I spoke to many trans people about the same minor topics it felt as if I was talking to her about trans stuff! Naturally and easily without worrying what she's thinking or anything.
Because when I do speak to people about trans stuff obviously I have to explain it first and it's all very awkward.

AND!
As a guy when ever I show knowledge about something "Girly" they would mention it like wigs or nails or something (I'm an artist, I can bang some awesome nail designs out) but they'd make a little joke or think it's weird that I knew that. With her it was so natural and I didn't feel like at any point she was being judgemental and it was all very smooth. Very different from what I'm used to.

Pffft and done. Dunno what anyone can really say to in a reply to this. But it's out! 'n Better out than in thats what some guy who entertains kids always says (That sounds very wrong and creepy)

[Ms Grace]

Best to enjoy the moment and the company, and not let worrying what others are thinking about you and your knowledge of femme things get in the way. I understand the frustration though, it's like you want to get into the details and have a real good girly chat about that stuff but feel you need to be careful about saying too much or the wrong thing because that would "give it all away".

[Blue Rabbit]

Best to enjoy the moment and the company, and not let worrying what others are thinking about you and your knowledge of femme things get in the way. I understand the frustration though, it's like you want to get into the details and have a real good girly chat about that stuff but feel you need to be careful about saying too much or the wrong thing because that would "give it all away".

You said it quite well actually yea. I've never really held back so I've just gone forth and had the conversation but always had to deal with an annoying remark...... This is the first time it's not happened like that and it feels sooooo good!
I actually felt for a moment like a normal girl who just wanted to put her tongue on special parts of her body! Thats how I felt like I was being treated and it was nice. Weird but nice. And weird that, thats how I wanna be treated! XD Oh golly.

[BeingSonia]

But thats not really the thing I wanted to talk about. Her style is VERY similar to the type of style I want but.... as a male can't have. She is a lot like me so obviously that brings out my dysphoria a wee bit cause she's a woman and like me and thats in short what I want for my self..

Try to be yourself first. Self acceptance is more important. Trying to be like someone else leads to many disappointments.

Sonia

[Blue Rabbit]

Try to be yourself first. Self acceptance is more important. Trying to be like someone else leads to many disappointments.

Sonia

Oh, no, no, no. You miss understood. I've never tried to be anyone apart from my self, thats one of the big things for me that make me feel like I need to transition because it doesn't seem to fit with the gender I was given. I'm not saying I want to be like her. Just that I was and AM like her but she's actually a woman. So thats why it reminded me of my issues. She reminded me of my self but with a more fitting physical appearance.