Getting Happy

[Just Ole Me]

So I've been on heavy Spiro for a year and low estradiol for about a month (my endo wants to move my estrogen up every 3 months to ease my body into the E pool since I'm 40)

Anywho, I was feeling better emotionally on Spiro but just the one month on low estradiol and wow!  My nipples are puffy and my breast ache as they are growing already. So much so that my wife took me sports bra shopping. I know its strange but I love owning my own bras and that I wear a bra daily even if it is just a sports bra for now. Seems silly but feels so right.

I'm already feeling more at peace and calm. I stopped taking my antidepressants 2 weeks ago and I'm doing great. Which is amazing since I've been on them for 15 years and whenever I stopped taking them, within 3 days I was a jerk and my wife could tell I wasn't taking them.

My wife and I are closer and for the first time ever, EVERYTHING is out in the open and she has fully accepted that I have GID.  More and more she can see that we are just like two women in love and committed to each other with a small child.  Our sex life has disappeared for now and has been replaced my cuddling and occasionally long passionate kisses. She gave me one of her vibrators and for now we both have that option should we choose (solo for now). But she feels it will be a little while until she can start to feel comfortable with us having sex as two women would. Which I can understand as its a change after 20 years together but she has come MUCH further than I ever could have hoped. So there is hope girls!

I guess HRT does wonders sometimes as I always hoped. I am not sure what more is in store for me physically but the emotional benefits so far have made it so worth it that any physical developments and improvements are icing on the cake. I looked much like Carrie before HRT and she has blossomed so well that it gives me hope. I'm on a major diet to help the physical improvements along.

I'm not sure if I'll ever fully transition but for now I am just taking it day by day.

I know this sounds a lot like so many other early HRT posts but just had to share.

Hugs

Kay

[Allyda]

I'm happy to hear your happy and things are going well for ya. Don't you just loooovve those little blue pills?, Lol!

Ally

[justpat]

   The HRT is nothing compared to the fact that your wife accepts you as you are and will still be your partner in a wonderful life !   You are blessed.     Patty

[fusstangtroy]

That,s just great for you ..Your feeling are spot on with mine.My go to words about my journey is it FEELS NATURAL just like when your smiling.. My wife is and has always been on board with my needs as i am the same for her own .. My med for depression are on going away trip them self .Your time with your better half in bedroom is time to listen what your body and brain whats ..It was one of the first issues we talked about and always adjusting to our new surrounding as my body is changing . I am in 1% group here as have no plans to say good bye to the bits .(weight risk versus reward ) .This does not say i am zonkey oh well maybe but thats how i am going to fly my flag so to speak. As for my own meds i am low doses of spiro and patch which is great .I plan to move up spiro a little at time.As one of or goals if possible is to still have some bits control .My wife is as excited about my breast growth as i am myself .Which is full steam ahead ..(just today she said my body is a loving the E .).I am 50 years young so drop me a line if you so desire . Have fun with your changes and enjoy them not rush them .. AKA Sara

[AnneB]

JOM... I am so envious, but I know is still probably difficult for her at times but I am really happy for you.
When I read of girls who have such supportive wives, I almost want to giggle and ask if youre Mormon and would they want a second wife..   

[Allyda]

I forgot to mention in my post my SO's been very supportive. I told her about me up front so she knew what she was getting into. Now, 4 and a half years later she's still in my life and still very supportive. Yes, like any other couple who's been together a while we've had out problems, none of which were/are related to my being trans or my transformation. Our relationship is about to have a huge test as she'll be leaving soon for a job up in MO., and I'll be staying in Florida, though I will be relocating down to the Okeechobee area hopefully around the 1st of the year if all goes well in securing my current property.

My SO and I will be apart for almost a year. And while I'm not worried about myself wanting to be with anyone else, before she met me my SO was completely straight only liking men so, I'm technically her first woman, and I do worry a little she'll find a guy she likes up north. She however assures me if that were the case she could have done that here but she hasn't, and won't up there.

Just Ole Me you are very lucky your wife is supportive and sticking by you. That shows true love on her part and yours. You have something very special and I envy you. As for myself and my SO, I'll just have to wait and see.

Best wishes!

Ally