Tried to go girl-mode, but crumbled.

[Foxglove]

Thanks foxglove, I got a lot of work ahead of me in the future. I'll definetly keep all that in mind. Think that I think will be the biggest fear is if I do it at work, where everyone knows me...

Transitioning at work is a totally different question.  You won't "pass" there since all of your colleagues already know you.  The question there is what kind of boss you have, supportive or the contrary.  It would depend on other things as well, such as your legal status wherever you are.  This is a question that you need to look into carefully before you go ahead.  People do lose their jobs, and that's obviously hugely unfair.  But if you need to transition, then you may not have an option.  I certainly hope you'll be OK at your job.

[Lost in L]

It would be awhile off before I do anything... Hopefully.. unless things get real bad. But I've pretty much felt I would get auto fired if it even slipped out alittle. Kinda made everything crumble apart and and put me in an even worse place.

[devon14]

This happened to me when I started transitioning too. I would look at my body and only be able to see a man without seeing any feminine qualities about me. As I came out to more people whom were supportive, they would give me nice compliments like "you have a nice neck" or "i love your hair" and I would focus on those positive aspects that people complimented me on and the image in my head of looking at an ugly male started to shift to seeing more of a girl in the mirror. Hormones and laser hair removal have also been a huge help too.