Hi there guys and gals and people of all sexes and genders. Greetings to you this day. It has been a long 3 year journey of doubt and counseling and decisions (some good and bad) as well as dealing with certain family members and my own fears and confusions. Not to mention the spiritual struggle inside that was plaguing me. But my therapist here in Commerce Texas has finally decided to let me try HRT. I mean try in the sense neither her or I really know if this is exactly what I need but that at the very least I need to experience what its like to know how it affects me mentally and psychically. Also we have been seeing each other for almost a year now off and on. In this small town of Texas with my limited insurance it was the only choice. While in the past I had been skeptical of her, I have come to learn she was trying to help me discover who I am inside, not just rush to take hormones as being the solution to all my problems. I am starting to see what other things need to be worked on as well.
I have decided that for me personally it is now best to embrace my female side,without completely giving up my male side. What this means for me is to transition to a point, but stop there. I want to embrace an androgynous, but leaning very feminine look and dress and overall person. I would still identify as something other than male and female though, as I am intersex and gender fluid as I realize now especially about the gender fluid.
But I am excited that I am finally here at a point where i can start HRT, and praying all goes well with that and that its what I really need. God Bless
