As I'm getting closer to my SRS date (later this July), I've developed almost a nervous feeling about having children in the future.
I've always had this strange feeling like it's my purpose in life to carry and give birth to a man's child -- to actually be its mother, not bank my sperm and go about it that way.
However, as much as I hope and dream about a uterine transplant or something and the ability to carry my own child, I doubt it'll ever be possible for me in my lifetime.
This makes me think that I should at least bank my sperm while it's not too late to do so. But two things make me uncomfortable about that option -- I would have to stop estrogen and anti-androgens and I'm afraid of potentially losing any progress. Also, orgasming as a man really would feel uncomfortable, specfically ejaculating, to me it doesn't feel natural to my body.
Does anyone have experience or any advice about all of this?