Hi girls. I'm just checking in to let you know I'm well, and happy. A few of you commented about me not doing a goodbye post, so I'm sorry if I was rude and unappreciative. But really, I'm just no longer staying around, and not leaving.
So now my update.
Got into South Range, Michigan last Sunday at 5:00am after driving for two days from Winnemucca, Nevada with about 5 hours sleep in rest areas. Needless to say, I love driving. But since Sunday there's been a lot of work on personal stuff, and it's getting kind of stressful since JoAnn is coming to visit next Thursday night. Especially since she expects more completed projects than I've had time to finish. ... Oh my head.
Got my letter of approval for genital electrolysis through my healthcare insurance, and I'm a bit more concerned about pain than I was before. In the last three weeks I heard some stories about instant and intense pain that made me cringe. Yet it's not stopping me from moving on, and I'm now resolved to be more cautious and prepared.
Good news:
1. Doctor accidently prescribed (and I now possess) one years worth of Depo Estradiol at home (Injectables). This will get fixed.
2. Weight is stable. 200 lbs.
3. JoAnn and I are open, talking, and accepting each others new lives.
4. Have a place to live in California in July.
5. Everything for SRS/GRS is submitted to Dr. Meltzer, and I await the consult on November 5.
6. Been in Michigan for six days, and have had a Sauna four times in six days.
7. My back no longer hurts. And even if my foot is tingling a little all the time, "it's not pain".
8. Being the woman I've always been is easier than I imagined. All it took was accepting everything that had to be eliminated from my life.
9. My sons and wife almost understand what I'm doing to stay alive, and one of my sons talks freely to me if I initiate the call.
And 10. (Yes, I found 10). I'm extremely pleased with my life, and the communication JoAnn and I share has led to some unexpected happiness for each of us.
Sorry, there's always 10.
To close. Be the women you have to be. Love yourself. Stand strong against the world as you would the wind. Accept the loss of those things you'll never have. Take and hold what you gain. And most of all, when you look in a mirror find the woman you truly are. So be honest to the only person who counts. ... YOU.
Oh yes. Those doubts you carried for so much of your life? ... They really do go away.
Hugs, peace and love. Kathy
