Had my first appointment with my therapist this evening. I came away very much relieved and proud of myself for having shared with someone what has been hidden for so long. She asked me to tell her about such thing as when I first realized that I was uncomfortable with my gender, whether I had been bullied in school, my level of socialization in general, how I would describe myself gender-wise, how I had dealt with gender discomfort during the different periods of my life, and what I had told friends and family. I told her about the little girl inside me and how I had cared for her. Toward the end of the session she explained the process of therapy was based on a standard of care that has several phases and that this was the beginning of the assessment phase. She also pointed out that a successful assessment will enable her to prescribe the most appropriate solution to my particular dysphoria, and that nothing at this phase of therapy is in scope or out of scope. She suggested that I not anticipate but rather trust that the processes has been well researched and is highly successful. She also assured me that what I revealed to her was in no way unique. I feel like I am just boarding a train and don't know where it will take me. But I have a great deal of confidence in the engineer and look forward to the ride.
