I need a hug...

[Kade1985]

I've been getting super dysphoric today. Like... Just so bad I nearly had a break down at work. Like I'm so tired of the customers calling me female pronouns it just gets to me you know? And it's bad enough I get dysphoric over my voice and costantly wondering if my chest binder is doing its job and...

You know it makes me wonder... I mean before I never knew why I was always so depressed and non-functional half the time and now that I know I don't know which is worse. Never having known or knowing and wishing the hormones would work faster

[Ms Grace]

A big hug from me! Sure hope you feel better soon!

[Kade1985]

A big hug from me! Sure hope you feel better soon!

lol thanks that kinda made me smile

[MacG]

You got it, brother.

[alabamagirl]

*huggles* I hope you feel better soon, big brother. I know just how it feels. I try to stay optimistic and focus on the progress I'm making and will make, but sometimes it's so hard. I've just come out of one of those very depressive slumps myself.

[JulieBlair]

Everything takes longer than it takes a friend once told me.  It seems so unfair that we can't just trade plumbing, but since we can't and since the universe seems determined to teach patience and persistence, keep on keepin' on dude.  T will do its work, and all this will pass to the next challenge.

Hugs,
Julie

[Kade1985]

Everything takes longer than it takes a friend once told me.  It seems so unfair that we can't just trade plumbing, but since we can't and since the universe seems determined to teach patience and persistence, keep on keepin' on dude.  T will do its work, and all this will pass to the next challenge.

Hugs,
Julie

Thanks. I know it will, it's just x.o too slow for me some days lol

[Escher]

Sending you a hug and the best possible vibes. 

[Jill F]

Me too.  You rock, Kade.

[kelly_aus]

A proper hug or a man hug?

Never mind, I never did work out the man hug thing..

Here's a regular giant hug..

[Cindy]

Kade you are a great looking guy.

Let an old tart tell you, it does get better.

Hugs my brother

Cindy

[Jessica Merriman]

 

One for every day this next week!!

[Jess42]

Big hug to ya' Kade.

I don't let pronouns get me down, well frankly I just really don't care what someone calls me. It does go to show how ignorant the world is to the trangendered population. Some may just have manners, I always say thank you Ma'am or Sir just out of politeness. If I do come across someone that I think may be trans too, I just say thank you, I just can't bring myself to ask someone what they would preferred to be called, just in case 1, they may not be and I may really insult them and they may be cis and not look like thier gender at all and 2, I definately don't want to out someone that may not be out.

But another big hug and just keep in mind that most people aren't even aware of themselves, let alone anyone else and just keep being yourself and going forward. they don't do it or most don't out of meaness or spite but rather just don't know anybetter.

[Kade1985]

Kade you are a great looking guy.

Let an old tart tell you, it does get better.

Hugs my brother

Cindy

Thank you, Cindy. =)

[Kade1985]

One for every day this next week!!

lol thanks!

[Kade1985]

Big hug to ya' Kade.

I don't let pronouns get me down, well frankly I just really don't care what someone calls me. It does go to show how ignorant the world is to the trangendered population. Some may just have manners, I always say thank you Ma'am or Sir just out of politeness. If I do come across someone that I think may be trans too, I just say thank you, I just can't bring myself to ask someone what they would preferred to be called, just in case 1, they may not be and I may really insult them and they may be cis and not look like thier gender at all and 2, I definately don't want to out someone that may not be out.

But another big hug and just keep in mind that most people aren't even aware of themselves, let alone anyone else and just keep being yourself and going forward. they don't do it or most don't out of meaness or spite but rather just don't know anybetter.

You have a good point. I will try to remember it

[Edge]

Thanks. I know it will, it's just x.o too slow for me some days lol

I know the feeling. *great big bear hug*

[Dee Marshall]

*hug, hug, hug,hug, hugggggg!*

I'm happier realizing it's dysphoria, even though it happens just as much as ever.

I used to feel like that and attribute it to other things going on. It started a lot of unnecessary arguments and hurt feelings. My wife says I'm much better now. Once I tell her I'm trans and start HRT I hope to be even better, even if I lose her over it.

[Bombadil]

hey man, I'm not good at hugs but I'll send some major support your way.

what you described is how I was feeling yesterday. this whole process feels so freaking slow, doesn't it. hang in there.

[Ltl89]

I understand how you feel, just on the reverse side of things.  I'm very rarely addressed with gendered terms nowadays, but I was called sir the other day and it was soul crushing.  While I understood why it happened (I'm still not full time), it just hurts so much.  Transitioning really is a process and sometimes that just sucks.  However, I remember how far you've come.  You and I started on this site at similar points and both of us were terrified about coming out, so you always stuck out to me as a member.  Think about how far you have already come from only a year ago.  It's pretty impressive when you think about it.  Since then you started your transition, began Testosterone, found employment and an accepting partner (well, I believe all that's true if my memory serves me well).  Those are all quite great accomplishments and important steps forward for you.  So even though it sucks that everything takes time and is a waiting game, think of how far you have already come.  It may help you realize how much further you will be able to go soon enough.  Sometimes focusing on what we have been able to do and get through helps us while we continue on.  Good luck Kade, and I hope you feel better soon.