Hey all! Just wanted to re-introduce myself here on Susans! I guess my other username got deleted or something so I am starting this account up. I was a long time lurker on this forum prior to first joining back in 2010 and I have thoroughly enjoyed reading and learning from all of the members here at Susans!
Anyways, my name is Kaley and I am a 26 year old bio male who has struggled with gender identity for my entire life. I initially fully came out back in 2010 when I was 23 and did everything the right way (therapy, hormones, hair removal, and everything else). I told a few people including my mom and my girlfriend and everyone who knew was very supportive of my decision. At the time, I had just graduated from college and was desperately looking for a job. It took almost an entire year before I was finally offered a job in the field I had majored in, and as it turned out I got two offers pretty much on the same day! I was still with my gf and had been on hormones for probably around 6 or 7 months by then and had to figure out which job I wanted to take (btw...those 6 or 7 months were probably one of the best stretches of time in my life and I was really really happy that I had started my transition). So, one job was out in this tiny town in NV and the other was back in HI (where we were both from). As you could imagine, my gf really wanted to go back home and I don't think I was ready to lose her at the time so I stopped my transition and...fast forward to about 4 years and here I am.
In the past 4 years the relationship between my gf and I has grown more and more strained and we have become more and more distant. I felt like my life was slowly withering away. Recently, the whole situation came crashing down on us as she finally asked me why I was so grumpy all the time and this time I finally told her the truth. She told me that she had already kind of expected/suspected that was what was wrong, but I guess she was scared to bring it up as well.
So anyways, I am basically where I was almost 4 years ago minus a bunch of college debt. I am currently seeking out a therapist, but the options here are a lot more limited than on the mainland so hopefully I can find someone soon because I desperately want to get back on with my transition!
That's just a little about my background so to attempt to keep this short (if that's still possible) just want to say Hello again to all the members here at Susans!!! I am definitely super excited to be back =)
