Flirting, and Guys and British People

[Rawb]

So I'm a guy (ftm), and I'm gay.

And I'm a terrible flirt with everyone, although I'm ->-bleeped-<-e at recognizing when somebody is flirting with me, or likes me properly?

I mean, when I was living as a woman, I was working at this place, and there's a guy that I was really good friends with. And when he found out that I was leaving work, and going to college in another province, he got super sad and just pulled me into this super tight hug, and I was like whaaat just happened? And I asked my friend and she was like DUDE. He's in love with you. It's kinda obvious. And I had no idea, and apparently he'd had a thing for me for something like two years and I didnt realize  .___.;

And now, I have this awful infatuation with this british man (and omg you guys, he's 6'2 and we have so much in common and listening to him sing makes you feel like you've been high-fived from god), and we joke around a lot about stuff, and I have no idea if he likes me or not. I also don't know if he's even into guys. And the whole him being British thing, because I'm from Canada, and do British guys even flirt the same way as Americans? (I imagine not? But I'm probably wrong)

I hate having crushes on people. It's so complicated and just plays on all my insecurities  >.<

[HoneyStrums]

Im british and have absoloutly no idea.
I Know if its just a sex thing their a lot of inuendo.
ie if im in a mood i opologise for being bitchy. this one guy says thats ok i like a bit of doggy. (obviouse flirt)

but from a relation ship stance i got no idea.
have you talked about likes and dislike concerning food? sounds wierd but ive been having a lot of convsation like that with this one guy. music films all sorts of thing like that.

And i still cant be sure. it just seems like when we have those types of talks it like were trying to get an idea what it might be like to live with each other.
but omg im just dieing for him to make an obviouse sex flirt just so i can be sure the next level is wear were going.

[Rawb]

Yes actually, we were talking about junkfood, and musical theatre and fabulous moustaches- because he's an actor and I'm a writer and it's just stuff we have in common.

He's the perfect gentleman  ^.^  And he's not an obvious flirt, if he's even flirting with me at all- I think he might be? But I don't know. He could be being friendly. Hopefully, I should find out soon-ish, because I did sort of admit it to him, jokingly calling him the perfect man and asking if there's any chance that he's not-straight, single and has a passing interested in dorky canucks (Me, lol).

I hope it wasn't too forward  ._.;;  I don't want to freak him out, because if I can't date him, I'd like to at least keep him as a friend.

There is a different guy, an american, who has a huge crush on me and it's very, very apparent, and he flirts with me constantly.  So maybe it's more a personality thing, than a locale thing?  >.>  IDK.

[HoneyStrums]

when you said....

the perfect man and asking if there's any chance that he's not-straight, single and has a passing interested in dorky canucks (Me, lol).

how did he react?

[Rawb]

when you said....how did he react?

We've been conversing through email, so I don't know yet, but I'll let you know as soon as he emails me back. Although I imagine, it'll be either in joyful joyness, or a bucket of tears. WE SHALL SEEEeee.

[Rawb]

bucket of tears it is!
Single & Straight    But flattered.
We're still super good friends though.

And now I'm wondering if open-minded straight guys would consider dating le gay FtMs   >.>
Wishful thinking, more than likely.
Getting me really depressed about being trans, because I reeeally reeeally like this guy  >.<;;

[HoneyStrums]

Your still friends :p

I know its over used but. It could definatelly of gone worse.

Having friends help time go faster. And the next time you know that making a move on a crush isnt guaratied to destroy a friendship.

But thats not going to help how you feel now

hugs