I felt very off for the past 6 hours, and a ton of thoughts ran through my mind; "Am I retarded? Am I stupid? Am I having a stroke? Did I had silent strokes? Do I have heart disease?", and I just couldn't function at all besides "being". I feel like I am losing my memory.
By the way, I been feeling like this for a while. But it was so intense that it interfere with my daily life. I don't want to be this way.
Then an hour ago, I was looking a little crazy, and then I went into my room and had a moment to myself to cry for a few minutes (and just a few minutes). And then I felt normal. I feel stable right now.
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It was an ugly feeling.
