suicidal thoughts are back

[Nora Kayte]

Just thoughts. In no way would I ever attempt suicide. But the want if god to take me in my sleep are back. I was on top of the world on my birthday and now today my wife and I were celebrating one of her family members birthday. She yelled at me in the restaurant. So I yelled back. I thought it was over and no talk most of the way home. I thought she was going to let it go. She tells me when we are almost home that I should just not go next time. And says she did not yell at me. We had a big fight. I am beginning to think trying to make things work with her just are not worth it any more. Its the little pick here and the little pick there starting to add up to make one big thing. If my feelings don't matter to her. What the heck am I supposed to do. I hate life once again

[Nora Kayte]

This is why I have not started hrt. If she can't handle the little things like my nails. How is she going to handle me on hrt?

[Constance]

I understand.

As things began to fall apart with my wife and me, I regularly had thoughts of suicide. Little things seemed to become big things. It could be she needs time, and it could be the end.

Hang in there. We're here for you.

[KittyKat]

Some people seem to make it through transition and keep their wife's. For me personally, my wife has become the one person that without a doubt that if I got trapped in a house with her for an extended period of time I'd want to be dead. I could probably go through the rest of my life never considering suicide if I didn't have to talk to her, but we have a son together and I have to talk to her because I love him.