MtF, can you give a name to call you by? much easier for relations. I understand what you say, I had a simular problem as a youth, though nowhere near yours. I was able to pass for male simply by a lot of weight training, concentraiting on the upper body and with my smallish breasts was able to pass it off by enhancing the musculature of my chest. Shaving, I had no need to shave more then once or twice a week even under work conditions where hygene and appearance standards were strict until toward 30 years of age. by 35 or so I began to shave every morning to avoid stubble. Sounds like you got pretty zapped though. I know exactly what it is like though as a youth to have nowhere to hide, I know all to well.
As to Klienfelters or 47 chromozone rather then 46, It is rare, (xxy) but enough of those out there. don't worry about your estrogen levels, mine these days is 180 and testosterone zero. Your growth should have stopped by now so unless your doctors have concern you should be stable in development and nothing new expected. you should not have any worries about hormone levels unless your doctor is concerned and that is the only source of information you should trust.
And yes, you are a form of intersex, though that doesn't stop you from identifying in any catagory you are comfortable in though there are definatly some you are not since you do not wish full transition and like having advantages of both male and female. Personally I identify as TS because I feel female and hate anything maleish about myself and do not have the more drastic deformities of what I consider true intersexed people. They have had more to deal with then i ever have and so I do not place myself in that catagory.
All I'm saying is that you can select a catagory your comfortable with or select none, it doesn't matter as regardless what gender you identify with the most, or neither, you fall into the public view of gender non conformity and intitled to the same rights as anyone here as long as you obey the rules and respect others here regardless of thier gender condition or sexual preferences. None of us is any better then another by virtue of our status of transition or stage of acceptance, be it CD/TV/TS/TG, we are all people who are trying to work our way through life in as much peace of mind as possible.
Even if you don't find others here that really fit into whatever catagory you feel applies to yourself, I hope you hang around and share your experiences with us and learn by the experiences of others.
Check out the rules of the board and please adhere to them as it is important that we all get along with each other, we have enough problems with the people outside without bringing then in here.
Good luck, whatever you are actually called. personally I hate handles and don't like using them toward people, to impersonal.
Terri
