Any "Wow, this is happening" moments?

[Klaus]

So I was just doing some work on my laptop when Declan goes, "So, 11 hours till we're at the doctor's office." I've been on the phone all day with said office straightening out insurance stuff, so I'm not sure why, but that really surprised me. Tomorrow is my first medical appointment for informed consent to start testosterone, and it just now clicked that this is really happening. Maybe it's because I had to wait for so long, and there's still part of me that's crazy anxious that something will go wrong but I think this is the first time I've realized that I'm actually going to get to transition and be the guy I'm supposed to be. Feels pretty awesome. 

So anyway, what about you guys? I'm curious if I'm the only one or if this is a fairly common thing. Did you have a "holy moly, I'm actually going through with this!" moment when you started transitioning? What triggered it? Was it before you started T, binding, surgery, etc?

[Edge]

The day I received my name change certificate in the mail. Well, sort of since I already had gone to see an endo for testosterone and was planning on starting soon. There was just something about having my name officially changed to Victor that really struck me in a  really good way. I wore a wide grin for awhile.

Oh congrats and good luck with the T, by the way.

[Tysilio]

Definitely. I remember driving home the day my therapist told me he was adding a note to my file okaying me to start T:  CD player cranked up... grinning... feeling like I could levitate and take my truck right with me.

It's a great feeling. Enjoy it.

[Dante]

It keeps hitting me repeatedly, actually. First when I was sitting in the doctor's office waiting for my first shot, and then after the first shot, and a myriad of random times after that. Whenever I notice changes or remember to factor in expected changes when doing my ridiculous planning ahead, I often just have to stop for a moment and remember that I did it. I'm here. This is happening. It's a pretty amazing feeling, even though I'm still a little bit stressed from trying to make all this transitioning as smooth as possible.

[FTMDiaries]

Yup, I've had those moments before each and every noteworthy stage in my transition. It's very exciting, and I've found that coping with that feeling has helped me cope with changes in all sorts of areas of my life.

Congrats on starting on the road to getting T!

[Hex]

Grats on starting T! I got super happy when my therapist said I could get my T letter literally after my 2nd apt with her. Turned in my biography to her, she zoom read it and then printed out my paper and I was so elated. I booked my T shot literally the day after I got my letter. Was amazing driving home after that first shot feeling like I finally was doing something right in my life.

[Klaus]

Thanks, guys! It went great, and if all goes according to plan I'll be getting my letter and booking my first shot on the 1st.

It's really cool to hear about all these different yet similar experiences. I never really got why people talked about the start of their transitions like a second birth, but now it makes sense. 

[campenella]

Congrats on starting T man, that must be exciting. I just faxed over my change of gender form and when my nurse handed me back all the faxed sheets and confirmation info for my records I was really calm until I got on the bus. I was smiling so hard, and I was just so happy. When I first filled out my informed consent forms I was over the moon. That first tiny vial of T was so surreal haha.

[Ayden]

I had one this morning when I bought my plane ticket for my surgery and another when I realized that I shaved yesterday and my chin is stubbly. I looked at myself in the mirror and just started giggling. My neighbors probably thought I was crazy.

Seems like I have those moments after big events and then at random. My first "morning wood" comes to mind.

Congrats on T!