So, I'm really depressing on my hands. I always bring them up, and trust me, there likely worse than yours. They aren't totally muscular and I do have skinny fingers (7/8 ring size); but my palm is wide (tad under 4 inches), overall hand is 8 inches long, usually covered in veins, my fingers and hands are totally knobby and my knuckles are probably as big as anyone you'd ever seen. I could almost see being fully passable, possibly even near CIS in terms of being a tall, athletic woman. I feel like I could potentially even end up looking pretty, nice body and all, but that my hands are so noticeable that they alone would give me away easily. It really sucks, especially when I have pretty standard feet for a 6'0" tall woman. Why hands? Why?
It's pretty plain to see that I have osteoarthritis already. Most of the knobs are obviously bouchardes nodes (google them). Basically all my fingers have them, but not really that badly aside from three fingers on my right hand. There's probably nothing I can do about my huge knuckles, but has anyone had bouchardes node removal or any other kind of surgery to make your hand/fingers less knobby? Apparently they do it; but I'm worried to have totally scarred hands that will still be big. Or has anyone had fat injections to cover the veins? Or vein disappearance after hrt? Or anything else? Really, I put on breast forms and appear to have the body of an attractive tall fitness model and I think my face could do well, but my hands just ruin it totally. Forearm veins too I guess. I feel like if it weren't for them that I'd be able to blend in easily and pass well. I'm just really upset over these things. I have tiny wrists too, so it makes them all the more eye catching. I feel like they'll prevent me from ever getting over my dysphoria...
