hope this works(updated)

[Umiko]

i just see it as its not fair i have to bog down everyone else for i am nothing more than just a trigger

[Sephirah]

i just see it as its not fair i have to bog down everyone else for i am nothing more than just a trigger

Not true. You're a human being with thoughts, and feelings, and hopes and fears. Hon, that's partly what this site is for. So people can get out what's bothering them without having to keep it all locked away inside. And to get help, understanding and support with the things they're going through. You have just as much right to that as anyone else.

*hugs*

[LordKAT]

You are not bogging anyone down. You have as much right to post your feelings as the next person. Sad feelings shared are halved, joyful ones doubled. So the saying goes, either way, sharing is a good thing when you are feeling burdened with these feelings. Most people want to help. They can't if they don't know if or what is wrong.

[Umiko]

i just want these feelings gone. i'll see what my psychiatrist can do when i speak to him but honestly he is a bit aloof. i've used up pretty much all my resources that i have so once this is gone, i'm off this ride and i wont go back no matter what the outcome is. it hurts way to much

[Jess42]

i just see it as its not fair i have to bog down everyone else for i am nothing more than just a trigger

Brianna, you are not just a trigger and you do not bog everyone else down. You are just going through some things that a lot of us have been and are still going through and I would like nothing more than to see you feel better about yourself.

i just want these feelings gone. i'll see what my psychiatrist can do when i speak to him but honestly he is a bit aloof. i've used up pretty much all my resources that i have so once this is gone, i'm off this ride and i wont go back no matter what the outcome is. it hurts way to much

A little secret, Psychiatrists are always aloof. Psychiatrists and Psychologists will never out and out tell you anything other than their diagnosis. They will not tell you what you have to do but rather guide you in directions that you can figure out what to do yourself to feel better about yourself. Don't give up, hang in there. I broke down last week myself so I know those feelings and they do come back to me from time to time and the dysphoria crushes me worst than if it was a constant. After quite a few years I have learned how to crawl out of the depths. You can too. Sometimes we need someone to hand us down a ladder to climb out and there are more than enough of us here willing to hand you that ladder.