why why why why why why why!

[Umiko]

I hate to do this but i feel like hell right now. i just got a call and my appointment was moved 3 weeks just because they friggin forgot to tell me that the doctor wont be in on the 17. i've been through enough torture right now and it seems like the torture is never ending. i'm barely able to maintain what little sanity i have but this by far is the worse. i wish i never came out right now. idk why but every summer i always feel like i might as well disappear. its not a want anymore but i need. i just wish there was a way to get out of this hole. i hate these feelings and i'm doing my best to alleviate them.

[EmoAlice]

I know the feeling.  What's the appointment for?

[Umiko]

I know the feeling.  What's the appointment for?

my appointment for hormones

[EmoAlice]

Ah.  Same here.  Appointment keeps getting moved back.  Feel like I'll never get there.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

You will get there. Just sit back and relax. I know how annoying it is, but that's just the way this goes at times. I remember going through the same thing back in 07. Now, I look back at it and it's like: "meh". You will get to the same point in time.

[Umiko]

its not the fact my appointment was moved really, its the fact i let myself get so high. they should of looked at his schedule, at least i would of been a bit more careful. i've locked myself away a long time ago, and this is what happens when i let myself out at this level. i dont have many more distractions that will last this next month. i just hope there are cancellations.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

its not the fact my appointment was moved really, its the fact i let myself get so high. they should of looked at his schedule, at least i would of been a bit more careful. i've locked myself away a long time ago, and this is what happens when i let myself out at this level. i dont have many more distractions that will last this next month. i just hope there are cancellations.

I get that. You look forward to that date so intensely and when it gets screwed up, it's a huge let down. It will get there.

[Umiko]

ugh!!!!!!!!!! not even my new favorite song jumpstart is working ._. sleeping sounds like a sweet idea right now. never will i ever again get this high. i'll just treat everything asblah moments. it'll save me the pain and i'll be a little more happier that way