can't get counseling :(

[ash16]

So All through the school year i had a councilor for free thru the school.   When school was done so was my counseling sessions.   I asked my mom if i can get a councilor for the summer she looked disappointed and was like.   can't we just see how you do with out one?   and i  was like are you serious?  remember what happened when we tried that last time?   -trigger warning suicide-    i tried trice to end it... failed both times and this started the therapy which i loved/needed/wanted.   what should/can i do to get therapy back again with out stopping life and summer?

[Jessica Merriman]

I am just curious if it is a case of cost, drive time or just the fact she doesn't think you need it anymore? A little more info would help. 

[Vicky]

I agree with Jessica, I have no idea what is going on there.  It is possible that mom does not understand the extent of your problem, or understands but cannot accept that your issues run as deep as they do.  I know that suicidal ideation can be a form of addiction that needs help similar to that of drug or alcohol addiction recovery programs, and there are programs out there that work if you work on them.  There are online chats available for GLBTQIA young people, and even a Skype meeting or two, and these all deal with suicide and SI/SH problems.  Google the Trevor Project for a good site that helps GLB young people. 

[ash16]

Im currently FTM Transgender so i was talking to the therapist about that and issues i had with my parents and just day to day life because i have been diagnosed with major depression and anxiety  so we talked about my week and stuff...  i feel like she thought i didnt need it for the summer or thought i could like.. just wait till fall semester starts