I was crying in my pictures today

[April Lee]

I was taking pictures of myself with a webcam to see how my new makeup regimen is working. I was looking at my image in the computer monitor, and while I was doing that, I had another one of those mystical moments that have punctuated my transition. I realized that I was looking at an almost an exact duplicate of my mother. Maybe with different fashion choices, but it was definitely my mom's eyes looking back me.

I then daydreamed that she was there in the room with me, and for a moment or two we just stared at each other. I then started to speak, "Mom, I am April, your daughter. I am so terribly sorry that I didn't have the courage to tell you that while you were alive. My mom, reached out and hugged me. I then heard her whisper in my ear, "April, I have always known who you really were. and I will always love you".

[Vicky]

You have me reaching for the Kleenex too doll!!  The picture looks great as well.

[Megan Joanne]

Oh geez, now you did it, you got me all teary eyed. 

[Emily.T]

That is so lovely April and inspiring to me because I haven't told my dad yet and he is 70 and in a nursing home but I'm just not sure how to tell him without crushing what spirit he has left, but I also relies that I can't hide it forever.

[Rachel]

April Lee, that was beauiful. Tears are rolling.

[Hideyoshi]

how sweet and sad (;

[Emjay]

Wow....  Just.....  Wow April

Very touching, I'm sure your mom would love the true you! 

I had one of those moments last year, strangely enough with my webcam too.  I was doing pretty much the same thing you were, just taking pix and in one I swear I look exactly like my mom when she was my age.  That one still freaks me out a little bit, and makes me really happy every single time I look at it. 

Moments like that are magic

[Misha]

I hope my laptop won't be too wet from how much reading your short story made me cry. Moments like that are precious. And as AmazinglyAutumn said I bet your mother would recognize and love her daughter.

I had one moment on May 24th evening (38 days on estrogens at that time) I looked into mirror after brushing my teeth. And in shock I stared at the face of my older sister. Ever since then when I look into a mirror I say to myself in my mind: "Yes, that's really you."