afraid, excited and at peace. oh my!

[rfhaas]

I am a 47 year old (man, for now) and am all messed up. I first thought of myself as female in second grade but suppressed it out of fear. I have struggled with addiction and.depression. I am married with tree great kids. I am three years clean and.am becoming ready.to.accept myself. I have an appt. With a psychologist in two days. At peace but afraid of.rejection by my family. I scored 155 on the cogiati test, I am a Neuroscience certified RN and I don't know how my h validity that test has. I need some.supportive feedback please. Am I crazy?

[Nero]

Hi rfhaas,

Kinda quiet around here today. Don't put much stock in the cogiati. It's what you feel that counts. A lot of us here have gone down the addiction path before coming to terms with things. May I ask what your addiction was?

[rfhaas]

Coke. I have been in and out of NA for 18 years. 40 months clean. What kind of reaction can I expect from the psychologist? I'm not sure if she has experience with this. I requested a women, don't think I could do it with a guy yet.