Hi all, I'm SallyCutie, I actually joined Susans in 2011, then supressed my feelings periodically over the time until now. Purged and splurged as they say. But I am so mixed up. I don't know what happens - its as if a wave hits me, totally immerses me, and out comes SallyCutie. I feel so girlie - getting excited shoe and dress shopping on the internet - other women walk past and I'm thinking I'd look good in that dress. Its crazy - I'm thinking that inside is a girl just under the skin that is bursting to come out. Ive never been particularly effeminate in any way but I cant see why I wasn't born a girl - sometimes I think I must have been a girl in a previous life. I'm sure these feelings are similar to many others here at Susans but I have no other way of discussing my feelings and situation. I lie in bed dreaming about being a girl.