So a year ago today I walked home from my second endo visit with a box of little blue pills. If I could go back and tell myself where I'd be today I think I wouldn't have believed it possible. Back then I knew I had to do this for my sanity and happiness but even so couldn't imagine I'd be ready for real life experience before a year and a half at least. I sure had a lot of doubts but pressed on regardless. And then the hormones began to work their biological "magic". Had my first real trip outside in girl mode about six moths ago, started outing myself to all and sundry... it's like I couldn't hold it back. Susan's and the wonderful people here has been a major form of support for me, really helped me to keep it together when everything got surreal or difficult. I started thinking I'd go full time in early June, but again there was no way Grace was going to wait that long, and almost before I knew it I'd outed myself at work and, most crucially to my parents and family. And so, three months later, wow, what a ride! Some of it (like the electrolysis, my father's denial, and getting hassled by some creep) hasn't been fun but the rest of it has been a wonderful, fulfilling life experience. Nobody pinch me, I don't wanna wake up!
