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Started by Rawb, June 21, 2014, 07:15:47 PM

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Rawb

It was a good day, we finally got a car (since our previous one broke down a week ago), and I had a doctor appointment and we were talking about the trans stuff. And she said that the wait-list for the therapist is 6 months. SIX MONTHS. So I'll be lucky to get it by Christmas  :(  To make matters worse, the only endo who does trans people, is in Hali, which is a city about 4 hours away. And the wait list for that is ANOTHER 4-6 months. So I'll be lucky to have started HRT by next summer  :(

I'll be lucky if I get my top surgery before I graduate college, in two years  >.<

To make matters worse, my partner (Ny) was being a jerk to me earlier, grabbing my chest and calling it boobs. And I tried to explain that I really don't like when he does that, and he got all offended and was like, "But I like boobs!" And I just sort of glared at him and told him that I don't like to be reminded constantly that I have them, and he rolled his eyes at me and told me to stop playing games, and I told him that maybe its a game for him, but its not to me. And he just rolled his eyes at me again. He's usually really awful about the trans stuff (He says it's not purposeful, but I don't quite believe that).
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helen2010

Wow, it sounds like your friend needs to listen to you.  Either he has a strange sense of humour or doesn't understand where you are coming from.

I hope the day improves and he stops behaving like this.

Aisla
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Adam (birkin)

Sorry to hear about your partner behaving that way. =/ Him being your partner is no excuse to violate your personal boundaries that way, it is YOUR body and you have the right to refuse to be touched, for any reason. That was a jackass move on his part and completely inappropriate and inconsiderate.

I hope you don't end up having to wait that long for hormones. I also hope he shapes up his act.
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PidgeTPN

Transitioning isn't a fast process, and six months is how long most people I know have had to wait at the least. It'll happen when it's meant to :3

It sounds like you either need to sit your partner down and explain to him that he needs to respect your boundaries and opinion or it may be better to find a more respectful partner. Not being good with "trans things" is no excuse to treat his partner the way he did. Take it from someone who was in a relationship with someone who acted like that with me. I thought things would get better, that he would learn to respect that about me, and it never happened.
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suzifrommd

You're your own person, you didn't ask my advice, and I don't know you. But if it were me, I would have little patience with a partner who doesn't treat me the way I deserve.

Hugs, Rawb. You were violated. That sucks.
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Marcel

Waiting an entire year to start transitioning?! I better start ASAP now.
Your partner really ought to be more considerate of your feelings, what he did was inexcusable and I would drop him if he keeps doing that despite protests of him violating my boundaries instead of respecting them. It looks like he really doesn't understand them and I suggest making it very clear to him since most people are inconsiderate due to lack of information.
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Arch

Ten to twelve months is quite a long time to wait for HRT, but try to keep things in perspective. I paid my own way and started HRT almost seven months after my initial phone call to the therapist.

I did have the advantage of top surgery within a year of that call. But by then, I had had the pleasure of spending something like twenty thousand dollars on therapy, endo, and top surgery. I was lucky to have the money; my insurance didn't cover any of it. I have known guys in the U.S who have gone a decade or more without top surgery because it took them that long to save up. If you are using Canada's health care system, you can at least be grateful to have most of your expenses covered. Two years for the whole kit and caboodle, and for much less money--well, it could be much worse.

I'm not minimizing the agony, by the way--just offering a different way to look at it. And I know that it's sort of like saying, "Your problems aren't so bad--children are starving in Bangladesh!" Yeah, that's not too helpful. But if you can look at other people in transition who manage to keep going and saving for several years, maybe you can find two years a little less horrible. Maybe not right now when the wound is still fresh and you are still a bit in shock. But maybe a couple of weeks from now. Whatever, just keep on trucking. You will get there.
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ErinWDK

Rawb,

The delay in transitioning is heartbreaking and my heart goes out to you.  Arch is right, these things happen in their own time frame and one has to hang on and keep their eye on the prize.  Hugs!

Now about your partner...  As others have noted you need to sit him down and have a frank discussion about YOUR boundaries.  There are things you do not like, and it is your body - so it is your choice.  If after you explaining this to him in terms that cannot be misunderstood he persists in that sort of behaviour that tramples your boundaries right and left you need to question if he really is a "partner."  There is someone out there who will love you for you.  I know that really hurts - but you are already hurt so it may be time to start mitigating the hurt.

HTH


Erin
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