Life is endlessly interesting. I usually identify as female, have been on HRT for twentyone months, and will be full time in two weeks, with ceremonies at work, and a bunch of other foolishness. But the fact is that the difference now and then will be almost entirely a better fitting shirt/blouse, and a little makeup. I already wear womens jeans/slacks/sneakers every day. I'm more femme elsewhere, but not really a lot. I still like to split wood, do carpentry, and a fill a host of traditional male roles with my kids and grandkids.
So am I more androgynous than female? Sometimes, in fact a great deal of the time yes. And I am fine with that. I don't have to sacrifice who I am to be authentic, I have to accept who I am as authentic. Where I land on the scale of gender identification isn't significant, how I relate to myself and the world is. I have been given the great privilege of being Satin Joy's friend as she discovered herself, and that growth is something for me to learn from.
I have only climbed out of rigid boxes, "all chained with chains, and locked with locks, and labeled kindly do not touch" for a couple of years. One of the most important things I have found is that to leave one box for another isn't necessary and is in fact self defeating.
My name is Julie Blair and I am proudly a human becoming! That is the description that I choose to use today, and that is the description that brings me closer to the light.
Peace,
Julie
