I'll say one thing, the hormones make a huge difference from being totally out of control to actually what I consider to be sane.
I'll stick with the genuine package of me. And value it as something special and unique. Who wants to deny pieces of themselves that are healthy, needed by others, and real?
I don't. In the back of my mind, my dysphoria nags and wants more, physically. But it does not command my actions, and when I am fully mentally healthy and objective, I live a non binary dream life.
What a gift to not be limited or imprisoned by physical dysphoric drives. To enjoy all that life offers.
Blessings, going on vacation and unfortunately forced to stealth for a bit out of necessity.

But I know who I am so it doesn't matter. They just can't handle it in their binary focus on living. Not their fault, but I have grown past that limitation.