Boy this is going to be more difficult than I imagined. Prior to this the mental movies I played always seemed to put me in the light of the strong willed (I always have been, or so I thought) and confident person who states his/her case and let the chips fall where they may. Today I called a former coworker who left the workplace years before myself but remained friends without the visiting back and forth (I am now retired). He has been almost life long friends with people who still work there. Before the conversation even started he said "well I heard you've been seen in drag" I froze and their was a lull for a bit, then he said "and I hear you've been getting high and drinking again too". This gave me the oppurtunity I needed to free up my mind and laughed. When he spoke again he sort of bunched them together so I did not have to give a solid answer straight out. He has always been an outspoken friend and I can appreciate that character trait. So after a short conversation we were arrainging a day for me to come out to his farm for a visit (I have been trying to get out there for some time) Just before the phone call was over he said "now dont come over in drag all made up maybe just a sundress or mumu, you dont have to get made up for me" (he is straight and just started up with a new girlfriend) Second laugh from me, probably a little too forced.
Now I understand that some may have had an idea because I have been easing into this in my own way by going out in light makeup,women's jeans and eye liner, but it just happend so quick I didnt know how to handle it. I dont socialize, call people, go anywhere, I am mostly a hermit out at my place in the woods. OK, with this said here is why the title of this post, because 95% of the people I know are from my past employment and once I tell him I will probably say its ok to pass it on. That means next week I will be almost 100% out. I dont know about others but I'm finding this really hard to do at almost 63 years old. Well for anyone who stuck it out and read this entire thing I'm glad to have had an ear. I swear the damage done by growing up in the 50's is hard to overcome. Thanks for listening. Dani
