SECOND THERAPY SESSION THIS AFTERNOON

[rfhaas]

I'm excited about meeting with my therapist again today. Two weeks is too long to wait, from now on it's weekly,  thank heavens. I have taken her advice so far and taken things slow. I did shave my beard(wife is shocked). I am taking on a couple of feminine behaviors(I only sit to pee now:) ). I am working on moving my body ie. Sitting, walking, in a more female way without being too obvious.  I wish I could do more but it is going to be a while until I come out to the wife. I sometimes wish she would figure it out or notice that I usually am wearing women's panties. The weight loss is going well:). Anyways,  just checking in girls,  wish me luck!

[Umiko]

congratz xD advice, if your wearing panties and pants, dont bend over unless you have a long shirt on xD my mother found out i wear panties because i was bending over and she questioned me about it xD well good luck

[rfhaas]

I'm kinda freaking out a little. My therapist is referring me a a specialist that is the only psych qualified to do the referrals needed for transition in my area. I am relieved that she recognized my situation and excited about moving forward but I will miss her. Plus I'm nervous about a male therapist. I call tomorrow to set up my appointment

[Umiko]

my therapist is a male. he is under the LGBT umbrella so i'm comfortable with him plus he was the only one i could find in my area. really, it comes down to personal comfort. good luck 

[rfhaas]

Scheduled my appt with the gender therapist for next Wednesday at 130. I'm a little nervous about having to start back at square one as far as my situation goes. I'm not sure if my first therapist will share her records with him. The upshot is that he is qualified to make the endo and even surgery referrals.  According to his website the transgender referral evals take 9 to 12 weeks of therapy.

[rfhaas]

I have my first appointment with Roger Gunder PhD. is this afternoon. My first therapist referred me to him as he is the only gender specialist in the area. My intake appt. today is $200 and an hour and a half. He apparently follows WPATH SOC. Anybody know what I can expect?

[LordKAT]

Three months or more of exploring who you are and why you want to transition. First appointment is more of a getting to know you thing and paperwork.

[rfhaas]

Met with the new therapist again today. I had been having mini panic attacks all morning after having had probably the best two days yesterday and the day before. I tend to get caught up in the future, worrying about what other people will think or might be thinking now. Anyways, I had a really great session, talked a lot. I hate to say I'm still on course for starting HRT in the winter(just because I'm really trying to stay in the moment) but I am on track. I told the therapists about my concerns about my wife and the stress it is causing me, how it makes me second guess myself sometimes. The thing is, even though I was so stressed out earlier, I feel more sure than ever that this is what I have to do. He agrees that I am most likely in need of transition, especially the small 'coming out' steps that I have taken have felt so 'right' to me. I kind of get the impression that he thinks it would be rare for a person to come in and start babbling about how messed up they've been since an early age, and how they have believed they were supposed be a different gender all their lives, and be mistaken. I don't know, I guess I thought he might try and change my mind, make me see my struggle differently. I am sssoooo happy that he hasn't. I don't know why I thought he would. And, he lowered his price for me, thank goodness, I would have had to miss an appointment a month for a while if he hadn't.

I just had to get that out there, it helps me to hang on to the good feelings to share:)