I've only accepted being trans for a very short time. I started asking questions around the end of May and beginning of June. I've had several people already tell me that I'm going too fast. My therapist on the other hand seems to indicate that its really up to me how fast or slow I go.
Last night I was starting to do laundry and I realized the curtain was open to the back door and I know you can clearly see in my laundry room from the next street over (especially at night and it was). I was about to head over there and close it. Then I realized screw it! I'm not going to close it and I left it open the rest of the night. I walked right in front of it several times. I wasn't all that nervous. Its the first time being public didn't seem terrifying.
Today I shopped both in the makeup department for fingernail polish and the women's department, hoping to find some skirts and shirts. Unfortunately with it being walmart, there wasn't a lot there. Everything I liked was either too big or too small. I ended up with several pairs of girly socks. In the makup department there was a tweenage/teenage girl that definitely saw what I was up to and gave me this look of approval. There were several women there as well and I didn't get anything either way. I was certainly nervous even more so than last night, but not by much. I was actually fairly calm the whole time. I'm tempted to go to Khols over the weekend and actually go as Ashley instead of Allen.
Now I'm wearing a denim skirt instead of denim shorts. I'm going to wear them outside while I cook my dinner. I'm tempted to wear them when I take my dog out for her next walk.
