depressed rant

[nicks]

Hey everyone,

So it's been 4 years since top surgery with Megan Hassall, 3 years since my revision, 1 year since stage 1 phallo and almost 3 months since stage 2 phallo. I've come along way, I should feel great but...I don't.

Megan hassall doesn't do nipple reduction and it's bothered me since the beginning. I thought I'd be alright without it, some cis guys are nippley, but I'm not. My 4 year old nephew saw me in the morning in my pjs (I don't wear a shirt) and zaid I have big nipples. My cousins 6 and 8 year old children saw me change my shirt in the bathroom today and noticed,  then teased me about it. A lot,  all night. They're kids but ->-bleeped-<-, I'm struggling with my depression really bad at the moment and I'm incredibly sensitive about my chest, I hate it. I've wanted a nipple reduction as soon as my chest healed and I saw it.

How many surgeries is it going to take for me to just accept myself and my body...I just wish I wasn't so sensitive. Sometimes I really don't see myself with a future, it's like I know one day I'll have enough of everything and end it all and it's going to be a shock, I don't think my family realises how much I still struggle. I'm almost 26 and I feel so pathetic,  I have no friends, no hope of a romantic life...I pretty much have no life. It's work and get operated on. I thought after my last operation I'd feel better and get out into the world but I don't and I won't, it's just too hard...

[campenella]

Kids are pretty weird and they know how to push buttons when they see something is bothering you. My only advice is to laugh it off and not let it show that it bothers you. Kids hold on to jokes and teasing for awhile especially with adults. So if they keep doing it ask them 'Do you think it's nice to talk about other's bodies? What if someone made fun of you at school because your hair is brown? What if they kept making fun of your hands or your feet? It doesn't feel good.'  Usually going 'What are you guys laughing about so hard? Really? Geez you guys haven't even seen my third eye yet!' or some other deflection gets them off of it.

I know things seem really horrible right now especially with something that you feel so sensitive about but hang in there! Don't base everything on surgery because it's not what's holding you back. Maybe you should get some therapy to be able to cope. I think you have a chance at things, especially romance if you'd like to try! I'm 26 and pre any type of surgery and I'm in the same sort of shape you are with feelings. Don't give up!

[Kreuzfidel]

Sorry to hear that you're going through this, mate.  Have you considered going to another surgeon?  I'm pretty confused about your saying that Megan Hassall doesn't do a nipple reduction - do you mean that she doesn't size down the nipple to a smaller male size?  Did you have grafts done at all? 

I ask because she did my surgery in January and she did a reduction on both my nipples.  I had enormous nipples/areolas before.

[devention]

Man, that sucks.
Is it the actual nipple that's large or the areola? I'm surprised that anyone would notice just a large nipple.
Seconding asking the kids  how they'd feel about someone making fun of a part of their body. It might be a valuable lesson on bullying for them, as well.
I hope you can find a way to improve your situation, even if it is having another surgery.

[stephaniec]

very sorry for your pain, all I can say I've lived with this misery for such a long time , but I'm finally on HRT. I don't know if surgeries are in my future because of cost. I'm a lot older and not sure how long I'll be around , but now I'm at least on hormones and I'm going to make the best of it because life is truly precious  . I feel the best I have in a very long time. It would be great if I could do the complete project but I just take a day at a time. good luck on your voyage . I hope you make it to a good place. best wishes