Just a long rant

[ThatGuySy]

So things were going really well for a while. Transition-wise and just life in general.
Was about 2 weeks away from making an appointment with a different therapist to get a letter of rec. Just waiting for my next paycheck.
Apparently the universe has different plans, because I rolled and totalled my car on Friday. Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am to be alive. Right now, I wish it would have killed me.
The part I feel the worst about is the fact that the car was a "gift" to me-I needed out of a bad situation and needed a car to do so but couldn't afford one, so a friend helped me out and I can pay her back when I'm able.
It just seems like every time I let my guard down and accept help, something like this happens.
I have no idea how I'm going to tell her. "Hey I totalled the car you helped me out with."
And again I have to put off hormones and be stuck.

I'm done now. Just needed to get the "whiny and feeling sorry for myself," out of my system.

[LordKAT]

You  certainly have something to rant about. I've been in similar situations and it can be pretty darn depressing. Have you thought about a informed consent clinic or sliding scale type clinic? I admit that means there has to actually be one you can get to.

I hope your friend is an understanding one.

[ThatGuySy]

I've researched different places in my state, and unfortunately haven't been able to find anything closer than my already-chosen place :/
The main thing about this therapist is that she requires less sessions than most for letters. Plus she is aware of my previous therapy experience and basing her "treatment plan" on that (was seeing a therapist who agreed to write letter then used up all my insurance sessions and wouldn't write letter.)

I know that it's going to get better, but it's a huge blow when you finally start pulling yourself out of a pit only to be shoved back in.
And my car insurance won't do anything because the other driver didn't even stop. And clearly I didn't get his plate number.