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[sophiaInside]

Heyy everyone, just wanted to introduce myself and tell you a little about me.

Im 22 years old and for most of my life I've had something inside me that attracts me to feminine things. I don't know if I would like to transition in the future but as I get older the thought stays in my head and I can't get it out. I try to repress it, and most people who know me wouldn't expect a thing. I appear very masculine, played baseball in college, still very involved in sports, but still has something in the back of my head that screams I may be female on the inside. Years of collecting clothes and dressing for long periods and then purging then doing it all over again. After I purge I feel good like Im moving on and starting to live the typical male life but as time goes on it comes back. I can't go into clothing stores without peaking at the women section and hope my friends and family don't see. I don't know if I'm transexual, I want answers and I really hope to hear from some of you and learn of your experiences to figure myself out. Im deathly afraid of people finding out but at the same time I think soon I will have to tell them as I plan to live my life as a female. I just don't know.

Thanks for listening and I look forward to meeting you all

I hope this site helps me answer some questions and most of all acts a support system that I currently don't have

Sophia

[LordKAT]

Hi Sophia and welcome to Susan's.

That purge thing sounds familiar from reading other posts so you are not alone. There is a lot of information here and friends to be made.

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[sophiaInside]

Thank you and I will read all the information, look forward to using the site!

[Evienne]

Well hillo! I hope you find answers to what your looking for. I can relate to what you're feeling, except, I never seemed to ever be masculine when growing up, but was never really suspected to be trans. I told some family, not all. Still thinking about if I should or not. But this is not about me, it's about you, and a fine welcome to you. I hope you enjoy it here. If you ever wanna talk about anything, I enjoy talking, so you're always welcome to send me a message ^^

[~Kaiden]

Welcome to Susan's, Sophia.

I'm on the other end of the spectrum, but I was pretty confused myself when I first came here.  But I found that reading other people's stories and talking to others about their experiences really helps to figure things out. I've also heard that the whole purging things is pretty common amongst the gals.

You've found a great place here.  I hope you can find the answers you're looking for.