There isn't very much anyone can do if you just comment that you have no support, but don't give a clue as to just what.
You comment that you're worthless... a comparison or really any kind of clue as to how worthless, worthless for??...
Just saying you're shaking and in tears leaves nothing to go on.
Several people have left you long comments of support and advice, but the advice is a crap-shoot, really don't have much to go on as to whether it's even advice you're looking for...
If what you say is to be taken at face value, then a competent ER is the place to be.
The nearest Psyche Unit available, because when you can't say just what the problem is, it runs deeper than what the comments in return here are going to do for you.
You're up for a while and then crash again.
A sure sign to me that you need antidepressants to smooth out the ride.
That you can't articulate the real nature of the problem(s), then you need to talk to professionals who can and will work with you.
We can all give you a shoulder to cry on, is it going to help?
We don't even know that... Let alone what kind of advice might be helpful.
It's time, this has been multiple events over a relatively short period of time and things haven't changed.
You really should do everything it takes to find proper help.
In an ER setting, they don't have the time to figure it out for you, they probably have people stacking up that have the usual cuts and scrapes and such that they deal with the most.
They don't have time to play twenty questions to get to the right one that you might have an answer to.
It's kinda the same here, you leave out the important stuff, the body of the comments you make.
It's not clear at all what you are trying to say, if there is something more than the words you have commented with.
I see this pattern and the only thing I can think is that you need professional help, and you need to get it soon, like right away.
If it takes you five hours to get to a competent hospital that has psyche facilities, then do it.
It doesn't sound like things have gotten any better, and it's now been, like I said, multiple times that you have stated pretty much the same things, without an explanation that we can work with.
You really need to be more specific if you can, otherwise it looks like your just repeating the same thing over again.
You have to do this, nobody here can do it for you.
Don't even know where you are.
Can't recommend anyone for you to talk to, can't even see if there is someone from here close enough to find out if there is a place you might feel safe at.
You have a tendency to comment and then logout, coming back much later, and we have no idea what's going on when you do this.
You cry out and then leave before the community here can react.
Very few people are available for more than a couple hours at a time.
Half of the responses go unanswered until you log in again.
That leaves us really nothing to go on, as well.
These are all things I know all to well for myself and because I've worked and lived with a lot of people who share these same things.
It really has come down to getting proper help, look into antidepressants at the very least and to build a support system.
I have as well as most of the people here who know those symptoms well.
We've been through it and we do know what we are talking about.
Need better information to go on if you are expecting help from the community, it's just the way it is, you don't give us enough to work with.
You say you've tried your ER and they won't help or can't help?
They will help if you insist that you need it, instead of just giving vague symptoms and then say nothing more.
Most ER's are only really band-aide stations until you get to the place either in the hospital or at another place to be properly taken care of.
They aren't the problem solvers, they are the ones who take care of the emergency at hand and then move on to the next person in line.
Here there is a lot of support, but you don't really get into any details in your comments that we can work with.
It really does sound like your asking for support, but support in what way?
There are very little clues to go on, and sometimes you have even told us that the support isn't the kind you want or need... You need to be more specific, or there is likely very little anyone can do as far as true support and advice.
It's time. You need to pull out the stops and do this. It isn't going to get any better if you don't, it will likely get worse.
If it does, it will go to the extent that someone around you will notice and you will be committed by the courts, not something you really want to do.
Once in the system that way, it is next to impossible to get back out, not without much more effort than it takes to get the help you need right now.
Not in a few days, right now.
I understand how futile it all feels, it is another symptom of things that you need to take care of, now.
The truth is, that there are really simple solutions to what seems to be the problem, but you have to act to take care of them.
If you don't, they are going to get worse and what it takes is just going to get harder.
Get on the phone and find a place you need to get help, make the call.
You liked Trevor Project, call them, see what they can do and don't hold back like you've been doing.
It's time to do everything you can to get better now. Today, right now.
PM someone here if you need more help, but be prepared to talk about it, to answer the hard questions.
If you really need, there are people who you can talk to on the phone if that's what it takes.
It's now up to you to make the hard decision to get this done the right way and it sounds like you need to,.. now.
Ativan
