how many times would you guess you've purged prior to tansitioning

[Jaime R D]

more than a few times from the teens on. A few times, I just gave stuff to my sister and then got it back later, lol.

[LivingTheDream]

I only had a small hiding place so I didn't have all that much but I never threw away everything. I would throw things away (or return lol) to make room for new stuff I got though. Then I found a much bigger hiding place and still got tons of stuff in there.

[stephaniec]

more than a few times from the teens on. A few times, I just gave stuff to my sister and then got it back later, lol.

yes, a memory just came back when you said that, I bought my first dress when I was 20. The problem was I was too skinny and the dress didn't seem to look right on me , but now looking back I think it was  warped perception. I gave it to my sister.

[kariann330]

I think I purged 3-5 times before I finally got it right lol

[Kaylee]

I must be the oddball here.

I never had anything to purge.  After transition I did purge my guy clothes though. 

^^^^^This.  Though I did occasionally try crossing dressing secretly borrowing clothes it was very rare as it'd just act as a trigger

For me, it wasn't clothes, though, it was just my collection of transgender fiction that I wrote. I've deleted them, told them I was never going to write transgender fiction again, and then subsequently re-written the exact same story all over again, at least 4 times.

I'd go through phases of reading fictionmania quite a lot, probably trying to convince myself I just had some sort of weird fetish...

[Zoe Louise Taylor]

A couple of times I purged! Especially at uni, as I couldnt deal with the transgendered feelings then . . . And it was much easier just to fool myself into thinking I was just a crossdresser!!

I also remember one massive purge when id just started at college!! I threw a whole wardrobe of clothes away!!! Just because I felt they were holding me back it kind of hurts to think back to those moments now :/

I think the main reason in my purges were just that the time wasnt right to start my transition, as I was living with my parents. Or I was ar uni!!!!

As soon I was in a position where I had some money, and had moved away from the family home, I was able to spend more time as zoe, and realisedhow much more comfortable I feel living as a woman!!

Xx

[Vicki]

I only purged once and that was when I was about thirteen. My mother had purchased some female clothes for me, she was always quite understanding. At the time I hadn't quite come to grips with being transgender, I believe I had never even heard of the term at that point in time. Anyways, like some people, I threw it out and tried to overcompensate by being incredibly masculine during the day. However, at night I would pray that I would wake up girl. That was definitely a dark time in my life...

[Joanna Dark]

Just once. But it wasn't really a purge, per se. It was me giving my ex-fiance her stuff back in the ever so awkard stuff exchange that occurs after break ups. This was five months after and was me saying to her "Hey, I was just joking. I'm not really intersex nor do I want surgery. Was just pulling your chain for three and a half years.Gunny stuff, huh?" Of cours,e she saw me naked and knew without a shadow of a doubt I'm IS. I identify as a queer woman though and just approach transition as a necessary medical procedure to make me the best person I can be and to get rid of my androgyny. I loved my androgyny, but now I just want to be totally female.

I also took T which deepened my voice some, though even now I get ma'amed on the phone. The worst was the facial hair. Ugh, what a mistake. So, I think this counts as a purge. A really long one with horrendous consequences. But now everything is getting back on track!!! And I'm only early 30s.

[stephaniec]

Just once. But it wasn't really a purge, per se. It was me giving my ex-fiance her stuff back in the ever so awkard stuff exchange that occurs after break ups. This was five months after and was me saying to her "Hey, I was just joking. I'm not really intersex nor do I want surgery. Was just pulling your chain for three and a half years.Gunny stuff, huh?" Of cours,e she saw me naked and knew without a shadow of a doubt I'm IS. I identify as a queer woman though and just approach transition as a necessary medical procedure to make me the best person I can be and to get rid of my androgyny. I loved my androgyny, but now I just want to be totally female.

I also took T which deepened my voice some, though even now I get ma'amed on the phone. The worst was the facial hair. Ugh, what a mistake. So, I think this counts as a purge. A really long one with horrendous consequences. But now everything is getting back on track!!! And I'm only early 30s.

sounds like a purge

[Asniceasme]

A couple of times I purged! Especially at uni, as I couldnt deal with the transgendered feelings then . . . And it was much easier just to fool myself into thinking I was just a crossdresser!!

I also remember one massive purge when id just started at college!! I threw a whole wardrobe of clothes away!!! Just because I felt they were holding me back it kind of hurts to think back to those moments now :/

I think the main reason in my purges were just that the time wasnt right to start my transition, as I was living with my parents. Or I was ar uni!!!!

Very similar to me in a way, although for me the purge was when I was finishing uni, as after uni it was back living with my parents again, and because neither of them worked, there would be very little opportunity to feel comfortable again.

[Asniceasme]

Besides my purges of throwing away items, I also did what some others on here have done, and gave some of my clothes away. Those clothes that I did give away were to my wife, if they were in her size.