body dysphoria

[Rawb]

I don't know if all my body hate is because of insecurities, or if it's because I have such a girl figure.
I think, if I was okay with being a girl, then I wouldn't mind my body so much.
Ahhh this sucks,
so confusing!
Can't wait to start HRT and just deal with this  >.<

[Felix]

I think if we were all okay with being whatever we were assigned at birth, we certainly wouldn't mind our bodies and wouldn't be trans.

Keep in mind HRT won't fix everything, and what it does fix isn't always quick. In social situations, I have dysphoria about my relative lack of facial hair and occasionally about my tiny hands, and I've been on testosterone for at least a couple years.

Hormones made my hip fat move to my belly, but my pelvis is still wide (which I like, but most transmen probably wouldn't). My hands are rougher and puffier and veinier and a tad hairier, but the skeletal structure won't change. My height is what it is. My stupid feet are what they are, though I went up a size or two from the blood volume increase.

I don't mean to dilute the importance of what you are saying. It's definitely hard to be out, even to yourself, and live with your body the way it was issued. Best of luck getting hormones. 🙂

[jamesdoran]

I am a little bit on the chubby side, and I often get upset about my body.

The thing is, I still have these crazy lady hips (which I'm sure T/working out will help in time) and that's what gets to me the most.

I often feel like if I had the same amount of fat, but distributed in the typical "male" way, it wouldn't bother me half as much.

So yeah, I totally feel you!

I just have to remind myself that like Felix said, there are some things that going on T isn't going to fix, and I will just have to learn to live with. But I plan on doing as much as I can (mainly working out) to help things along, as far as the feminine body shape goes.

[Rawb]

Just, all this time, I've been thinking that I look really really awful, but I've been comparing myself to guy bodies. I guess if I compared myself to a woman's body, then it's not so bad. I don't mind my hips, but its things like how my upper arms are so big compared to my forearms, and the size of my thighs and my ass. Women would have that, its natural and nice on a woman, but as a guy, it just makes me feel really fat and gross   >.<

[Mr.X]

I totally hear ya. For years after I hit female puberty, I thought I was fat. Like genuinely fat. Until I realized I was always comparing my ass and thighs to guys instead of women. I have never been fat or overweight, but it felt like that because in my eyes, I had too much fat on my bum and thighs. For a female body it was pretty normal.

T will indeed change it, but its slow. In combination with a diet and exercise, it finally is happening for me. So know that it will change for you when you start T, eventually.

[Felix]

Just, all this time, I've been thinking that I look really really awful, but I've been comparing myself to guy bodies. I guess if I compared myself to a woman's body, then it's not so bad. I don't mind my hips, but its things like how my upper arms are so big compared to my forearms, and the size of my thighs and my ass. Women would have that, its natural and nice on a woman, but as a guy, it just makes me feel really fat and gross   >.<

I think comparing your body to a woman's body, as much as it feels odd to do so, can be a lifesaver. When I get down about my body it's often after using cismale metrics.