Hi, I have been coming to the forums for a few years now but finally decided to post. I am 43, divorced, and have finally come to a point in my life that I cannot hide who I really am any more. I've always hated my body, the hair on it especially, but was either too afraid of what people would say if I shaved it. After the divorce and a 2 year bout of depression so severe I became a complete recluse I finally woke up and decided it was time to move on with my life. Therapy played a big role in that, and I am forever grateful to my therapist and my parents for helping me through this time.
Now I find myself alone for the first time in my life, and am able to really take a hard look at myself and see who I want to be, not who others think I should be.
Thoughts of transition have been with me for a long time, but I was always afraid to act on them because of who I would hurt or who would reject me. That time is past. In the past 2 months I have gone on a diet, have lost 25 pounds and am wanting to lose another 25 to bring me down to 180, I am looking for a gender therapist in my area and will be setting up an appointment with them as soon as I can. I do plan to start HRT, but not until I reach my weight goal.
A thousand blessings to Roxy Rose and her inspirational videos on youtube showing that it is possible even for those of use who are not spring chickens any more.
Anyway, thats me in a nutshell... which will soon break open to reveal the true nut inside.
