Using the female pronoun as a first reaction

[BORNTOFLY]

I'm starting T in about 2 months & I'm over the moon!  I'm confident in who I am & I know intrinsically I'm a man.

But lately, I have referred to myself using the female pronoun. I've done this during self talk & w/ others. My first reaction sometimes is using "she".

I understand people have both masculine & feminine traits but I was just curious if others have had this same experience! :-)

[Bombadil]

I've done it. I think it's habit as much as anything. I wish I didn't do it, but I figure it will sort itself in time.

Congratulations on starting T soon.

[BORNTOFLY]

Thanks Christopher, it's cool to see I'm not the only one!

[jamesdoran]

I just started T and I am still working on making the mental adjustment

[aleon515]

Yeah I did it initially quite a lot (as well as referring myself to my dog's mom--- obviously not biologically "mom" here and that kind of thing). A year and a half later I almost never do this.

--Jay

[Dante]

I haven't spoken it, but I've had times where I've referred to myself in my thoughts as "she." I've determined it's mostly because a lot of the time when I'm mentally thinking about explaining things I think as though I'm talking to someone I know, and that person is normally someone who calls me by she/her/hers pronouns. Now that pretty much everyone is calling me by my proper pronouns, it happens a lot less. Just one of the things that takes some time to adjust to, I guess.

[devention]

Yeah I did it initially quite a lot (as well as referring myself to my dog's mom--- obviously not biologically "mom" here and that kind of thing). A year and a half later I almost never do this.

--Jay

I do this too, Jay. It gets on my nerves that I do it, but old habits die hard.
I'm just over two months on T, been out for two years, and I still occasionally do this about myself in my head. It's partly out of habit (twenty years of thinking of yourself a certain way is hard to get over) and partly because the people around me forget my pronouns frequently or misgender me without knowing me. Annoying but getting better.