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This is my Coming Out week

Started by Rawb, August 13, 2014, 04:32:24 PM

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Rawb

I already told my siblings and my dad, and that has sort of died down into a somewhat level of comfort. My dad was like, "Right. So, when should I expect to meet your first girlfriend?" And he said it in a teasing way, and I shrugged and replied, "I'm just becoming a guy, dad, I'm still into guys."  "OH. So.....You're gay now, too?"  And he gave me this LOOK, like  O_________O  REALLY. REEEEALLY. siiiiiiigh.

So he's come to terms mostly with me being trans, now he has to deal with me being gay as well.
I sort of feel bad for my dad.
This sort of sucks.

This week though, my "coming out" week... Is all about Aunts and Uncles. Because they only come around once a year (in summer), and sometimes they even miss that. So I have my Uncle from Ontario and my Aunt from Edmonton.

And I'm telling my Aunt tomorrow- she shouldn't be too bad, she's always been fairly supportive of my relative strangeness and she's a nurse. I expect a barrage of questions along the "How much do you really know about what you're getting yourself into" line, and I'm fairly prepared for that.

My Uncle is the one I'm a little worried about. I don't even know how he feels about gay people, let alone trans peoples. I expect a lot of negativity, an eyeroll, him calling me crazy or stupid, and then just not believing me or something. I'm trying to prepare for the worst. My Uncle is leaving next week, about Tuesday-ish, so I want to tell him before then.

The most interesting thing though, is that I haven't yet told them that I'm getting a divorce from my husband of 6 years. They might have already heard it from someone else in the family, since news like that travels fast through the family grapevine, and think that when I take them aside, that I'll be telling them about that. So they might be a taaad surprised when I'm like, yehh sooo, I'm a guy now (But y'know, with a touch more tact than that).
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Big week for you.  Good luck. 
~Malachi Uriel

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Rawb

Thank you.

I told my Aunt, that went as well as I thought. Her reaction was pretty much, "Yeh, I already figured that out a while ago". Good, I guess. I asked her how she thinks my Uncle would react, and she doesn't know. She's pretty sure that he's homophobic. Which is awful, so now I'm really dreading telling him. She's going to try to be stealthy about things, and find out how he feels about this sort of thing, and then text me and let me know. She suggested that I just not tell him and pretend to be a girl around him. Which I don't want to do, because if someone had something go on, I'd prefer they tell me, rather than just lie to my face all the time.

Also, I failed my drivers test today.
So I'm just not in the greatest of moods.
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Gabrielle_22

Good luck with everything! Telling my extended family is also something I'm contemplating with dread, since a good portion of my family is homophobic (which I use rather than "transphobic" because trans* issues, for them, would all be lumped together in their mind under that banner as a general "deviance"). I don't know anything about your immediate family beyond what is here, but it sounds like your father might come around eventually. Fingers crossed.

As for the uncle: would you feel safer telling him from a distance or with others you have already told present, like your aunt? I'm really glad she is being supportive like that, too--those little gestures of asking him and then texting you mean a lot.

My opinion would be that if you are telling everyone else, pretending to be a girl around your uncle might not work, since you said news tends to travel fast through your family, and you need to do what will be most affirming for you. By doing so, perhaps he will come around soon and learn something more about LGBT issues. But I know how difficult it is to contemplate telling family members who might not get it, and so I hope you find a solution that works for all of you.
"The time will come / when, with elation / you will greet yourself arriving / at your own door, in your own mirror / and each will smile at the other's welcome, / and say, sit here. Eat. / You will love again the stranger who was your self./ Give wine. Give bread. Give back your heart / to itself, to the stranger who has loved you / all your life, whom you ignored" - Walcott, "Love after Love"
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HellsbellsMio

Quote from: Rawb on August 14, 2014, 01:58:37 PM
Thank you.

I told my Aunt, that went as well as I thought. Her reaction was pretty much, "Yeh, I already figured that out a while ago". Good, I guess. I asked her how she thinks my Uncle would react, and she doesn't know. She's pretty sure that he's homophobic. Which is awful, so now I'm really dreading telling him. She's going to try to be stealthy about things, and find out how he feels about this sort of thing, and then text me and let me know. She suggested that I just not tell him and pretend to be a girl around him. Which I don't want to do, because if someone had something go on, I'd prefer they tell me, rather than just lie to my face all the time.

Also, I failed my drivers test today.
So I'm just not in the greatest of moods.

I really understand that you feel quite down right now.. But it must've been great to get that reaction from your aunt, that she already kind of knew and wasn't surprised!

And about your uncle, he's missing out on a great deal in life because of his narrow mindedness. I think you're doing right in telling him (if thats what you want), how he reacts is up to him, it doesn't have anything to do with you. You opening up and being true to yourself (and anyone else you want to) shows you're a strong and honest person. Anyone who reacts negatively to such a thing only shows they've closed their hearts and minds for some reason, chosing to close up often roots in fear of some kind, but the resons of others isn't your problem either, if they don't want to see they'll remain blind regardless of how much you're trying to help, sadly. Focus your energy on yourself and the ones that're there for you.

And btw, if you change your mind and don't want to tell him it doesn't mean you have to fake being a girl in his company. You never have to explain yourself to anyone really, just be you anyway! And if he or anyone else after a while would question your changes in a inconsiderate way, you could just say that you would rather keep your private life private.

The drivers test is a minor thing, is'nt it? It feels bad, I know, I've failed two in a row a couple of years back and haven't had the chance to do one again yet, but yeah.  ::) I've been busy moving, getting in to university, coming out to myself and then selected close ones and so on. There are buses, trams and trains for transport but just one life (at least as the person we are right now, I guess, like who knows what happens) to find oneself and making a happy life, right? Doesn't mean you shoudn't go on with getting your licens obviously, good luck with your next test, I'm sure it'll go well!  :)

With love to all <3
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