I'm so thankful for all of you who have responded. And while not my intention in posting my photos, I genuinely appreciate the lovely compliments as well. I was always proud of how far I have come since my "humble" beginning point, a true testament to the power/effectiveness of hormones I've always believed. And I am still very grateful, even if things may be a bit "shaky" at this point.
The reason I am certain that it is not age related, is because it seems to come and go on a month-by-month basis. I could show you a photo from a month ago, and you would say "well by no means have you de-transtitioned whatsoever!" but then I could show you a photo from a week ago, and you would say "OK, I can sort of see what you're referring to" and then I could show you a photo from a month from now and everything may be right as rain.
I'm hoping that, ultimately, the pellets will provide consistency. They have so far managed to do so very nicely with regards to breast growth, which again assures me they are working very profoundly as in 6 years I have not had very much breast growth at all, and definitely not consistent.
I think the issues I've had with my facial feminization, my top priority as it is what everyone (including myself when I look in the mirror) is going to see first, will eventually find balance as well. Some of the encouraging posts in this thread have definitely made me feel more hopeful than when I initially posted. That really is the beauty of this place.
I will be having FFS with Dr. Zukowski in October. So, as Jenny mentioned, whatever issues I have, if they do remain, will be eradicated at that point. I just wanted to have the "natural" femininity to compliment the "scalpel femininity," rather than a trade-off. 6 years (and especially the first 3-4 which were extremely difficult) tell me I earned it.
I'm not going to give up hope. Again, thank you everyone!
Sincere Regards,
Ash
