I say second, because being honest with myself and the internal struggles I've faced for years as well as coming out to people in my life close to me was the step I went with first.
But today I will be calling a therapist and seeing if she would be a good fit for me as a regular therapist while I go through the process. Nervous, but also happy to be taking this (to me) large step. 90% of my friends already refer to me as Jenni, and the one I contacted is calling me as such, and it means a lot to me. I finally feel like after so long, I'm on the path of being myself.
I'm also thankful to the members of this site for both support and the resources available. Would not have found this therapist otherwise. 🙂