Did you embrace your femininity when you hit puberty?

[Bimmer Guy]

Ok, so I guess this might be an unusual question but it's sort of a "spin off" of the "tomboys" thread.

At the age you hit puberty or at least when your body began to noticeably change, did you initially embrace the changes? Or was it an "oh god why?" kind of thing? Were you sort of passive about this since, for some, it was an unavoidable consequence of being born "wrong"? Maybe for awhile you accepted it even if your mind was telling you it was horribly wrong?

How did you feel when your body started changing?

I just passively accepted it.  Having more of a male physique (no hips, broader shoulders than most females, tall, etc), also helped, though.  I had a large chest though, but I was a late bloomer in those growing (by then I was in college, so I just wore tight sports bras).  I was also fortunate that I grew up during a time (1980's) when wearing men's rugby shirts and men's polo shirts (think golf shirts) were the fashion for females, so I didn't really have to deal with having to make the choice of either wearing something feminine or standing out like a sore thumb if I didn't.  I was also popular in school, so my not really wearing any makeup (I wore a little bit of mascara sometimes) and not having "girly" hair was accepted.

I guess I didn't really answer the question, though!  What I am saying is that no, I did not try to look feminine when I hit puberty, and it didn't impact me socially.  I guess I am assuming the reason why some guys embrace their femininity is to fit in, but I didn't do that.  I guess some also do it in an attempt to fight the feelings of being a guy, but I think I just always felt kind of genderless and my body dysphoria wasn't triggered due to the fashion style at the time, so I didn't think it terms of trying to be the opposite as to how I felt in order to "fix myself", if that makes any sense.

[Dalex]

Wow, I just actually had a conversation with a few other trans guys about puberty not that long ago. Well as for how mine went, I was panicking even before I started puberty. I think I was about nine or ten when our class was split up, I remember feeling so out of placed with the girls. Then the teacher started to explain how the girls body would grow and develop into a woman. I remember being absolutely terrified, the thought that my body was not supposed to grow that way since I had always known I was a boy. I actually got some ace bandages from my friend who was an early bloomer and started binding, hoping to prevent them from growing. Though, I actually got away with going to public swimming pools wearing only shorts till I was about 12 and I loved it. Even with long hair (I wasn't allowed to cut it) I was always gendered as a little boy.
Then about a year and a half later, BAM! Period... Jumped up to a B cup in about two months, hips came... The first year or so of puberty I sunk into a major depression, I never left my room and all I did really do was sleep. On my 14th birthday my dad got me make up, a skirt and some girly top for my birthday with the instruction I needed to wear all that to school the day after because one of his friends kept on telling him that I was a girl and I'd better start acting like one. Didn't help with the puberty thing...
I tried for a while to make everyone happy, wore skirts and such and tried to wear make up (which luckily for me it turns out I am allergic to most brands and such). I tried a lot to embrace the changes but in the end I never could.
One of the horrible things was when one of my little sisters kept on telling me she wished she had my size and how awesome 'boobs' I had... By the age of 20 I had gone up to a G cup. But, I am happy to say that they have gotten smaller after some weight loss and such. I don't know, at the time living it was not the best but I am trying to look back and see it as not all that bad, its hard, but I'm trying.