avoiding dysphoria

[Cin]

It's easy, I just to have to spend all day at home, not go out, never look at women, not hear female voices, maybe play videogames all day, and I'm pretty much fine.... It is so easy! lol but even then there's no guarantee that I won't have dysphoric thoughts because I might just see something girly in a videogame. I do have weird dreams when I sleep, of course. and don't like all these weird feelings I have at night either.

It seems that my dyshporia doesn't act up when I keep myself busy, but as soon as I try to relax, it starts again.

In other words, it's not easy for me, lol. How do you keep tab on your dysphoria ? (I hate that word)

My dysphoria seems to get worse with age, as I mature and feel more and more uncomfortable in my own body. That is what I call 'night dysphoria', and it doesn't really act up unless I feel like man.

[Jo-is-amazing]

I guess i'm lucky in that i'm transitioning at 18, but the dysphoria is overwhelming. I just try and distract myself

[Ms Grace]

Since I have transitioned to full time my dysphoria has mostly dropped away to nothing, or at the very least a mild background hum. I don't have much body dysphoria and when I'm at work I totally feel one of the girls, when I'm at home by myself I'm just me so I don't care how I look. For the first time ever it actually feels "under control".

[Charlene]

Cin, focusing on work or working out used to help me.  It does not any more and hasn't for a long time.  Hiding away and not hearing or seeing anyone female helps avoid triggering the worst pain, but I can't do that 100% of the time, and the severe dysphoria is still present.  And I feel like I'm out of tricks, it's just going to hurt until I take more steps.

Jo, congratulations on living as yourself so young.  You'll avoid the worst of the T damage, leave the conflict behind you, and have a long, happy life as yourself.  Yes, I'm sure the dysphoria is absolutely horrible, but if you can still distract yourself for the meantime, that's all to the good.

Grace, you just added as I was typing.  Good for you, that's such wonderful news, and so encouraging.  "Under control!"  Oh, so nice...

[FrancisAnn]

Since I have transitioned to full time my dysphoria has mostly dropped away to nothing, or at the very least a mild background hum. I don't have much body dysphoria and when I'm at work I totally feel one of the girls, when I'm at home by myself I'm just me so I don't care how I look. For the first time ever it actually feels "under control".

Grace, it's been nice to follow your posts. You have done well young woman. I'm sure life is so much clearer these days. I'm doing OK myself, life is good except for some nasty facial hairs that will get zapped away soon. Take care GF.

[Cin]

Cin, focusing on work or working out used to help me.  It does not any more and hasn't for a long time.  Hiding away and not hearing or seeing anyone female helps avoid triggering the worst pain, but I can't do that 100% of the time, and the severe dysphoria is still present.  And I feel like I'm out of tricks, it's just going to hurt until I take more steps.

Jo, congratulations on living as yourself so young.  You'll avoid the worst of the T damage, leave the conflict behind you, and have a long, happy life as yourself.  Yes, I'm sure the dysphoria is absolutely horrible, but if you can still distract yourself for the meantime, that's all to the good.

Grace, you just added as I was typing.  Good for you, that's such wonderful news, and so encouraging.  "Under control!"  Oh, so nice...

I know, lol, I'm safe at home, but I have to go out sometimes 

[helen2010]

Vin

Low dose hrt may well help.  Certainly stopped my dysphoria in its tracks.  No more noise and no more stress.  May be worth discussing with your endo.  Other actions like dress, presentation, hair removal etc will also help.

Safe travels

Aisla

[Cin]

Vin

Low dose hrt may well help.  Certainly stopped my dysphoria in its tracks.  No more noise and no more stress.  May be worth discussing with your endo.  Other actions like dress, presentation, hair removal etc will also help.

Safe travels

Aisla

Seems like that's where I'm heading in a few years; non-binary/partial transition. Hopefully. Either that or a miserable life as what I am now.

[RockerGirl]

Cin, I know how you feel for sure. I used to do a million things in one day just so I couldn't let myself think. It worked for quite a while, then I just woke up one day and got steamrolled by the dysphoria! None of the stuff that I used to do worked. I do a lot of the same stuff you do too, staying inside does help a little bit but the dysphoria is still there. Can't hide from it anymore lol. Are you doing any therapy?

[Cin]

Cin, I know how you feel for sure. I used to do a million things in one day just so I couldn't let myself think. It worked for quite a while, then I just woke up one day and got steamrolled by the dysphoria! None of the stuff that I used to do worked. I do a lot of the same stuff you do too, staying inside does help a little bit but the dysphoria is still there. Can't hide from it anymore lol. Are you doing any therapy?

nah. Just a psych for depression, and I've been going on and off. I need a bit more time to seek help for my GD.

[RockerGirl]

Yeah, I still haven't gone yet either. Soon though!