What are you thinking? 9.0

[Jaime R D]

Well, they didn't delete it, so I logged back in just to respond to something. May as well annoy people a bit longer I guess.

[Abby Claire]

I didn't sleep well because I went in my mind through my life history with my transgender issues. I also came to a realization that my mother is basically the one person who has stopped me and made me second guess the decision to transition. Therapy can't come soon enough.

[Jill F]

I like my coconut scented body wash.  I smell like an exotic drink today. 

[King Malachite]

I decided to buy my sister Chinese food as a "thank you" for picking me up from work.  I paid $5.57 for it and found a penny so it's like I paid $5.56.  This may sound horrible, but I kind of regret buying her food since I'm literally scrapping by to pay for top surgery, but she does a lot for me though.  I can't do it all the time though....just this once.

[Blue Senpai]

"You're only as good as what your achieve. Otherwise, I'm worth nothing."

[Rainbow Brite]

I'm off to the driving school for a bit of practice tomorrow. then Friday I take my driving test. I better pass this time. I just want to drive and keep driving.

[Bombadil]

well, it sucks that I had to do a factory re-install on my computer but hopefully this means it will work reliably now. at least I'm back on.

mostly though I'm thinking... well about the stuff I talked about in therapy. I really didn't think I'd go there but I just ended up having to say something. I knew that the Adrian Peterson thing triggered me but I thought I was ok and than I just started talking. And I keep thinking I've told my therapist things and then I say something and realize I hadn't shared that. And I hate it when therapists get that sad look. It's better than talking about this stuff with friends. they never know how to respond. they get all upset or silent or... cripes. I need to let this go. I really thought I'd told her some of that stuff before. Blah. well that was a depressing think

[Apples Mk.II]

I think I will go to the bathroom, remove my gaff and leave only the standard underwear  I have on top of it. Since I recently did a bikini line lasering, that zone is covered in cream and it is slipping. Also I'm wearing a skirt, so there are no bulge issues today.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

Where is my other shoe? WHERE is my other SHOE?!

[Adam (birkin)]

I'm getting really PO'd and overwhelmed because it seems like I never have time to do anything, unless it's some form of work. There's my actual job, there's my coursework, and then there are two upgrading courses I am doing. And then smaller tasks such as chores (laundry, keeping my room and bathroom from turning into mold pits, ya know) and whatnot.

I do have some opportunities at work to work on some things, but I prefer not to split my focus on the job even if it is "safe" to do so. Just seems kinda wrong on an ethical level, since I am getting paid to work for them, not paid to work on my own stuff. I also enjoy interacting with coworkers.

But yeah I just find myself getting kind of angry with myself because I'm actually quite acclimated to having a lot on the go. During my undergrad I worked full time, did a full load of university courses, labs, etc and managed to keep everything under control, why not now?

Edit: well, things are under control, I'm getting far enough along but I'm angry about it. Finish one task, there's another enormous one to take its place.

[King Malachite]

My father said I have to drive sooner or later.  I told him I know....I have a plan.  I didn't tell him what that plan was, but it's be able to pay for top surgery first, THEN drive and in the meantime, buy a moped and use that if I have to.

[immortal gypsy]

I seriously need to find myself a pair of sunglasses. It is what 19 days into spring, and today I needed to walk around with my eyes closed when I was outside. Today I was outside for less then 5min and I'm still seeing stars, is it winter yet

There are three rules in caring for me the first: Keep away from bright light, especially sunlight for it can kill me. Two: Do not get me wet. And finally most importantly three: No matter how much I scream, no matter how much I beg. Never ever feed me after midnight

[Tossu-sama]

SWEET ZOMBIE JESUS MY HINEY IS ONE FIRE.

I didn't remember my T shots sting THIS much. @_@

[Jaime R D]

Today is my dad's birthday, he would have been 78 and next month will be 6 years since he's been gone. Still miss him a lot too.

[Destiny Marie]

I am so full of questions, that being here I fell like a kid in a candy store. Where to start? Guess I need to slow down and work that out as I am the only one that can pick the perfect place for me.

[Adam (birkin)]

One of the people I worked with needed some minor first aid, which I administered in his bedroom. His bedroom STINKS because he refuses to wash his sheets and blankets. I can't get the smell out of my nose.

He needs to start being held accountable for his actions. Or lack of actions. He needed first aid because he was trying to start something and landed on a wall. He started a conflict to get out of a medical appointment, then tries to convince me that he needs his meds. Um no honey.

[Bombadil]

SWEET ZOMBIE JESUS MY HINEY IS ONE FIRE.

I didn't remember my T shots sting THIS much. @_@

bummer... oh, pardon the pun. I can't believe I almost forgot about my T shot. wow things change

and what I was thinking before the T shot reminder, apparently I'm turning into a decent looking guy. This is very weird. To here words like "hot" and "sexy" and "cute" used about me is weird. To not hate hearing it is even weirder.

[Jill F]

Day one of my progesterone cycle and I'm already ravenous.  What up with that?  Let's just hope it all goes to mah bewbs.

[King Malachite]

Bernice from South Beach Tow is sexy.

I had to train the new girl today....like really?  I hardly know what I'm doing.  This is my first job and I haven't even been there for half a year yet....and I'm interviewing people and training them....lol.

[Jera]

I had to train the new girl today....like really?  I hardly know what I'm doing.  This is my first job and I haven't even been there for half a year yet....and I'm interviewing people and training them....lol.

This one astounds me, every time it happens to me. But it means you're doing something very right, and the boss sees that. Keep up the good work, Malachite.