What are you thinking? 9.0

[Edge]

People talk disparagingly about labels and terms as if they are bad things that are ridiculous to use. I wonder how these people propose to communicate clearly without using words to describe things and express concepts. Interpretive dance?

[Liam Erik]

I often think the same, Edge.  Why do we have to label everything?   hmm...so we can talk about it?

Also, there exists a difference between making a general statement and accusing YOU personally or your cousin of being x, y, or z...

[Jaime R D]

I like labels. I have one of those p-touch things with different colored tape cartridges. Thing seriously comes in handy.

[Edge]

One of these days, I'm going to ask one of these people to try to explain something to me without once using a label/term and call them out on it every time they do.

[Adam (birkin)]

Sometimes I get so sad about being this way that I wonder if I should have even bothered transitioning. I know in my head that I'd be way unhappier as my "other self" but sometimes I get so sad about not being a standard male that I contemplate if it would be easier to be a standard female.

I also feel really alone, sometimes I read trans blogs, or some stuff people say, and I feel like even among trans people there just aren't many people who feel the same way about their situation as I do (even during the good times when I am relatively OK with it). Some people at work are trying to set me up with a support group but how many people in my situation are even going to be there? I just feel I'll go in and feel more alone.

[Edge]

What is a standard male and standard female? What kind of male are you?

[immortal gypsy]

Trying to think how not to think too much.  That way I might be happy(ier) again

[Destiny Marie]

Trying to think how not to think too much.  That way I might be happy(ier) again

Just went through an anxiety attack over this one. If you can figure it out please share. Just remember to breath and try to relax, that is what my therapist said just before giving anti depressants.

[Bombadil]

haven't been here in a bit. I really wish I had a reliable computer.

Trying to think how not to think too much.  That way I might be happy(ier) again

if you figure that out let me know

[Shantel]

Trying to think how not to think too much.  That way I might be happy(ier) again

[immortal gypsy]

Yes o great auntie of ours, that can be oh so true.

(Right now sad mood is more of apt description. It did make me smile a little thou)

[Adam (birkin)]

My schedule is a mess. o.O

I have a ton of random, weirdly scheduled shifts...which means a lot of time on the bus. In an attempt to lessen my time on the bus, I also have scattered driving lessons throughout the month. I have family that needs to see me soon. I have to lose some weight so that I don't have loose skin when I get my chest fixed, going to be a challenge with the random meal times. I still have to get new glasses as my old ones are so scratched that my vision is impaired. I have a degree to finish. I have an upgrading course I am doing that I have to finish.

The buses are a bunch of connections too, not just one long ride, so it's hard to get work done on the bus...

I have no idea how I'm going to make this work. I also have to be cautious about my money so that I can afford surgery and tuition on time.

[V M]

Is it wrong for me to feel about the same weddings as I do funerals?

[Jill F]

Is it wrong for me to feel about the same weddings as I do funerals?

Nah, I dreaded both.  Then again, it was partly because I had to wear suits.  I HATED wearing suits, and DESPISED wearing a tux.  I am so glad the clothing dysphoria trigger thing is over.

You're going to hate the way you look.  I guarantee it.

[Rainbow Brite]

Boy, the way my class mates and instructor talk and stare at women they spot as we pass by when we are all in the truck, it is like being in a semi truck cab full of horny teenagers.

[Adam (birkin)]

I just got really emotional and started to cry. Which is probably a good thing because it was bottled up.

I havent been working as hard in counselling this time as I did last time.

[NathanielM]

My appointment with my therapists got moved again because my classes interfered... And I had something to talk about, but the longer I have to wait the more I start thinking I should just leave it and keep working on the issues at hand as I was... I'm just so tired of it at the moment. I've been working on several issues in therapy for about 6 years. And I've made progress and I feel that me, as a person, I'm a lot happier, more at ease, I can do more... But it seems I just have no control over my moods, since yesterday I'm just... empty and there's no reason... It feels like I'm trying to fight a losing battle, and I'm sort of floating on moodswings that I can't explain... And maybe this should've gone in the unhappy thread

[Apples Mk.II]

Thinking about the things you would have to hide while deep stealth to a partner in a serious relationship:

- HRT
- Dilation
- How come you never have your period?

[King Malachite]

I hope I'm not pushing it too far with all of the cold meds I'm taking.  I really want to get rid of this cold.  Since I'm a big guy, I reckon I can take it, but I still want to try to go easy.  I just have to get through work in one piece.  I got a birthday party to work Saturday, and it would be nice to be able to have more energy back by then.  After that, I'm going to ask my boss if I can bail early because I don't want to exert myself too much.  I need one or two good days where I can just rest.  Thank God he hired a new girl.  I hate sore throats.  :/

[Bombadil]

Malachite I hope you feel better


I am nervous and I feel dumb for that. For a variety of reason I haven't been to Temple in ages. And now I'm going to Rosh Hashannah services... as a guy. No one knows I've transitioned. It's not like a ton of people know me there (that's one of the issues) but the choir does. And on that note I miss choir so much and my voice is in a wicked changing place and my singing sucks right now.

ok, gotta go