What are you thinking? 9.0

[Blue Senpai]

I should remember to take a picture daily for that 1 year on T comparison. +__@ MUST. REMEMBER.

[Ali girl]

I am thinking that I just don't fit in. Either in normal or transgender circles...  Maybe it is just the way I type compared to how I speak in real life.  I guess I will always be that strange, awkward kid in the corner like back in high school.  Oh well

[Devlyn]

I'm thinking that I'm watching a professional (troll) at work.

[Jaime R D]

I'm thinking that I'm watching a professional (troll) at work.

I'm just an amateur...

[Devlyn]

You do OK. 

[LordKAT]

I'm just an amateur...

Fail, you are not a troll.

[LordKAT]

I am thinking that I just don't fit in. Either in normal or transgender circles...  Maybe it is just the way I type compared to how I speak in real life.  I guess I will always be that strange, awkward kid in the corner like back in high school.  Oh well

I'm thinking that this will be only for a while. It takes time to be comfortable enough with yourself to be able to express yourself well. I hope you are feeling welcome here, even if you are , for now, following along in the background.

I also have a hard time getting a post to say what I want it to say. The words don't flow anywhere near what my mind says they should. You fit in here just fine, you belong here as much as anyone here does.

[Jaime R D]

Fail, you are not a troll.

Being a marsh monster, trolls are my distant cousins though.

[Edge]

Being a marsh monster, trolls are my distant cousins though.

Hello, cousin!

[Ali girl]

I'm thinking that this will be only for a while. It takes time to be comfortable enough with yourself to be able to express yourself well. I hope you are feeling welcome here, even if you are , for now, following along in the background.

I also have a hard time getting a post to say what I want it to say. The words don't flow anywhere near what my mind says they should. You fit in here just fine, you belong here as much as anyone here does.

It isn't the words...  I'm pretty free at expressing these days. 

It is more along a line of many facets that don't bother me, yet do.  I am very open at work and recieve great praise.  I am commended for not being afraid to talk about or answer questions etc. Now, I took my daughter to the Laura Jane Grace and Gaslight Anthem concert last night in Pittsburgh... We had an amazing time, yet I did not talk to or relate to any of the other girls there.  I only have 4 transgender friends not including here.  In forums... It just seems I am misunderstood or otherwise ignored.  Thanks for the response, but I just don't know.  I guess I'm just one of those people.  No worries.  Im use to being that person. 

[Devlyn]

I'm part Chupacabra! 

[Pikachu]

Sometimes I log in and there's one of those threads. You know, the ones that you can tell are going to end badly, just from the title alone. And I'm thinking, "Yeeeah... I'm not touching that mess." And I click ignore.

[Bombadil]

wow.

[Liam Erik]

It's black walnut season now and the nuts have a strong brown dye in them that lingers for weeks if you paint yourself with it.  So I'm thinking about doing that.

[V M]

Not sure that I'd want to paint myself, but some black walnuts sound pretty darn good right now

[Liam Erik]

I meant in a small way, like a design on my arm. Personally I think black walnuts taste pretty foul but I ate one the other day that wasn't too strong.  My granddad made a vise that pulverizes them no trouble.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

What documentary?

There are several of them. The one I was watching at the time was called "Zero Hour: The Massacre At Columbine High". But I remember seeing the news coverage on the shooting when it was live. It was crazy.

[Ali girl]

There are several of them. The one I was watching at the time was called "Zero Hour: The Massacre At Columbine High". But I remember seeing the news coverage on the shooting when it was live. It was crazy.

I actually did my senior seminar paper on the psychological profiles of shoot shooters.  Kleibold and Harris were the first of 4 I covered.   It is very scary when you actually research the plethora of documentation on them but the worst thing is the psychological issues they both had.  Very high levels of narcissism along with the prior use of SSRI's (selective seratonine reuptake inhibitors) like Paxil with proven side effects detrimental to adolescence under the age of 18.  Add to that parents more worried about their careers than their child....
Every shooting I researched showed not one tell tail sign.  It is breed from a perfect storm of medication, mental illness, meds, and social isolation...

Sorry... I wanted to put my hours of research out there for some reason...

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I actually did my senior seminar paper on the psychological profiles of shoot shooters.  Kleibold and Harris were the first of 4 I covered.   It is very scary when you actually research the plethora of documentation on them but the worst thing is the psychological issues they both had.  Very high levels of narcissism along with the prior use of SSRI's (selective seratonine reuptake inhibitors) like Paxil with proven side effects detrimental to adolescence under the age of 18.  Add to that parents more worried about their careers than their child....
Every shooting I researched showed not one tell tail sign.  It is breed from a perfect storm of medication, mental illness, meds, and social isolation...

Sorry... I wanted to put my hours of research out there for some reason...

Those are all good points. I had been out of high school for a few years when it happened. 

[Ali girl]

Those are all good points. I had been out of high school for a few years when it happened.

Thank you.

Columbine happed my senior year of high school....   Made me feel very old researching it.  =\