What are you thinking? 9.0

[Jenny07]

I feel terrible and alone.

Today was a bad day at work a 5 people lost their jobs.
All transferred offshore to save a few dollars and give some wealthy shareholder an extra 0.000001c per share which they don't need.

One of the cuts left me stunned as the role is vital. Others were people I was training up over the last 3-6 months.
My role was not affected but I still feel for them.

[Tossu-sama]

Just my luck. I got a flu with a terrible cough to top it off and now as a lovely free-of-charge extra I have otitis in my left ear. But no fever, oh no, I could never have that.

BLEH.

[Anna++]

I'm thinking that it's been a really, REALLY long time since I've signed in here ...

[CalmRage]

I'm thinking that it's been a really, REALLY long time since I've signed in here ...

yes it has.
How are you doing?

(this is CalmRage in case you forgot who this is)

[Anna++]

How are you doing?

I'm well!  I've been fairly busy the last several months with work, cheese making, and occasional dog sitting.

How is everybody here?

[CalmRage]

I'm well!  I've been fairly busy the last several months with work, cheese making, and occasional dog sitting.

How is everybody here?

a lot has happened around here. a lot of long-standing members left, some returned, some left and returned.

as for me, i moved, lost a lot of weight, gained a lot of self-image, don't have a problem with my body anymore, but i still am very depressed, in fact, i have more mood-swings than ever, but i have a psychotherapist and we're working on my various issues.

[JHeron]

Is it just me or do you ever wish you could just see a picture of what you'd look like post everything? Transition really scares me because I don't look like a stranger or be ugly (superficial I know but I admit it's a concern) am I wrong for that? I'm so terrified of transitioning and losing my hair and looking more like a cross between genders than actually male...  this probably doesn't even make sense

[immortal gypsy]

Grr auroras yesterday made me a total space cadet, so it was safer to stay home. Now I have no shaving cream for my legs.  No skirt for me today will have to wear jeans

Hang on what happened to that "I'm a jeans and t shirt girl no matter what the weather is outside" I said I would always be last year

[Adam (birkin)]

omg Anna, I remember you from a while back - when I saw your avatar just now I was like "I know that face, I know that name..." I was trying to put my finger on it and then I fully remembered! Wow, you have changed a lot, you look absolutely amazing.

[CalmRage]

Uh, tomorrow german karneval/fastelovend begins again.
I'm glad I don't live in Cologne. I think it's great if people let go of everything and dress up during this "5th season" but it's not my cup of tea and I have an irrational fear of costumes and makeup. I guess it's the usual, locking myself in and occasionally walking the dog (thank god we have some nice fields and a nice forest right around the corner).
I have loosened up though. I can take the "culture" in small doses and with some acts, in bigger doses. That is another thing: The music, for the most part, sucks. There's a few acts that are actually good. The rest is simplified garbage specifically designed so that even with heavy alcohol poisoning you can still sing along.

[King Malachite]

Nice to see you again, Anna. 

I'm thinking about how I'm going to miss that private bathroom at my job.  *sigh*

[DragonBeer]

This support group seemed like a discussion section for a college class.
I'm such an introvert.

[King Malachite]

My boss moved a bunch of stuff out of the space he was renting and left some Simpson masks/costumes and a Scream mask for us to keep if we wanted.  Neither my co-worker nor I wanted hat stuff.  I took the Scream mask and threw that demonic piece of trash in the garbage.  The Simpson masks will be thrown away too in the near future.  I have no need of that. 

The custodian at my job likes to get quarters and put them in the ball machine to get  random ball.  During her last 3 visits to the machine, she has pulled out 3 bouncy pool balls with 6 on each of them.  I love giving her a hard time about that.  She pulled the third 6 tonight and she just gave it to some little girl.  She then put another .50 cents in and got a pool ball with the number 15.  Dangit, I just want her to pull a basketball so she can give it to me!  I need to take a few of my quarters and play that little "slot machine" as I call it.

[antonia]

It's probably not appropriate for a girl to say this and be so blunt but at times I get fed up with people expecting the world to provide them with everything they need and want.

The world is not a fair place and to expect anything from the world be it looking pretty, passing, having love, a good job, being happy, it all feels like western entitlement, we've come to expect things and take them for granted when the reality is that we need to find them and work hard doing so, even then nothing is guaranteed.

I'm all for these things but complaining about them not being handed to one on a silver platter while much of the world lives on less than a dollar a day pisses me off.

Anyway, that's what I'm thinking.

[Tossu-sama]

I'm watching Jackson Galaxy's My Cat From Hell and I'm just shocked by the amount of cats that have been de-clawed. How could anyone even consider doing something like, let alone actually follow through with it? And what kind of a vet does that kind of horrible thing???

This just sounds so weird and cruel to me. Cat de-clawing is illegal in Finland, just like cropping and docking, and rightfully so. It's terrible.

[King Malachite]

My birthday is next week.  I'm debating if I should buy a kick push scooter and go to a skate park and scoot.  If I do, then I'm going to bring my 7 year old nephew as a "cover up" so I won't look like a total dork.  He has a scooter too, so we can just scoot together.  I think he also has a skateboard as well.   





A few minutes has went by since I wrote the above.  As it turns out, the skatepark is closed down so nevermind.....      I really wanted my nephew and I to go and experience this cool skate park too.  *sigh*

[StrykerXIII]

"Some legends are told, some turn to dust or to gold, but you will remember me, remember me for centuries".

Can't get the song outta my head.

[Rainbow Dash]

Made it in and out of California. Don't want to go there again with a Semi. Ever. Pretty though. Passed so many places I've wanted to see for myself. Now I am back in Nevada. Just passed Las Vegas. So many places I want to see there too.
I'm having fun doing this, but seeing these places doesn't excite me like it should.

[Jenny07]

Have been pretty down in the dumps about work as they are letting 5 people go in my team.
So I have decided to move and had a look online for new roles.

There are two perfect ones that suit me fine and the pay looks good. This is the first time I have looked for 4 years.
Will call the recruiters tomorrow morning and they will be grovelling at my feet as I am perfect and too good to be true.
They will love me just like my client who was told today I am moving away from them.

I am sure they will not be happy but I want to be in control not some faceless manager.
I hate feeling unsure about work.

Lets see if I get both and have to choose.
Last time I had the choice of 3 at the same time.

Yes I am that good at what I do and this is from my boss.

J

[kao]

thinking thinking thinking I should have made that apple pear rhubarb pie I planned to make earlier I could go a big slice of pie *licks lips*