Is This a "Disorder" and "Confusion" when I have total clarity + peace + calm???

[JohannaJohn]

Girls, here is an intimate emotional conversation I am having right now with a BFF from Susan's in real time right now on Facebook...this is a word for word copy and pace of our conversation from about 3 minutes ago...

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Something like that.  I think here in the states it represents Gender Identity Disorder
I hate the term though
wow, I cried just now when I read your answer
wow am I emotional now
OMG
because how can it be a 'DISORDER"?
it reflects TRUTH
of our internal and eternal souls
how is it a "disorder" if our true selves are revealed?

Disorder=Confusion

F that!
but I am NOT confused, girlfriend

I have total clarity
I have clarity of vision
and I have clarity of feelings
how can I have a disorder, if I have clarity and tranquility?
disorder is chaos, I have no chaos
I have peace in my heart
I am female
this is obvious in my soul

UNQUOTE

The poetry in my heart in clear today.  I have no disorder.  I have no chaos.  I have vision, I have feelings.  I have clarity.

I am female.  What could be clearer, or simpler?

Johanna.
I AM FEMALE.

[Pia Bianca]

You don't have to have a confused state of mind to have a confusion.

If your inner gender is female and your outer gender is male, there obviously is a disarrangement thus a disorder.

Your mind doesn't need to be confused if your body is.

[Allyda]

Big hugs to you Johanna!

Ali

[JohannaJohn]

You don't have to have a confused state of mind to have a confusion.

If your inner gender is female and your outer gender is male, there obviously is a disarrangement thus a disorder.

Your mind doesn't need to be confused if your body is.

But Pia, Now I have growing breasts, and growing beautiful hair. so my body is less and less confused, if in fact it ever was.

Now I have my reality.

I am female.

I am free.

Johanna.

[JohannaJohn]

Do I have "physical" confusion?  Not for much longer, if at all...

Just because people looking at me frequently see a male, doesn't at ALL mean that I am confused...

My heart is clear and free...

And my growing breasts, soft skins, and great new hair simply manifest more and more my mental reality.

Does this strengthen my so-called "mendical disagnosis"?  Maybe so, but this matter little to me.

Mentally i am clear as a bell, and the physical reality as I stroke my breasts and tingling nipples and tingling hair, tell me that I have a "congruity of freedom" -- finally!

Johanna.

[Evelyn K]

Do I have "physical" confusion?  Not for much longer, if at all...

Just because people looking at me frequently see a male, doesn't at ALL mean that I am confused...

My heart is clear and free...

And my growing breasts, soft skins, and great new hair simply manifest more and more my mental reality.

Does this strengthen my so-called "mendical disagnosis"?  Maybe so, but this matter little to me.

Mentally i am clear as a bell, and the physical reality as I stroke my breasts and tingling nipples and tingling hair, tell me that I have a "congruity of freedom" -- finally!

Johanna.

OMG me too!

[Pia Bianca]

But Pia, Now I have growing breasts, and growing beautiful hair. so my body is less and less confused, if in fact it ever was.

Yeah. Transitioning is the treatment. It cures the confusion.

For many years they tried to cure the mental state but didn't ever succeed. It's because the body is ill. Transitioning cures that illness.

I'm not seeing any therapist nor taking any pills. But since I started growing my hair I'm much less in a disorder. I feel like starting my treatment.

[LizMarie]

Just to be clear, the new DSM does not call it Gender Identity Disorder. It is now called Gender Identity Dysphoria, mainly because just being trans is no longer seen as an illness, but the confusion it can cause is seen as a factor in other mental disorders like depression.

[Mikaela]

Disorder, confusion? Nah, probably not. I am no longer confused and order seems to be restored.

The pain, when I see the man in the mirror, is very real though. The agony of being talked to as if I were a dude, is most certainly clear and present. It's something, but disorder and confusion it is not.

[zog]

That's kind of the point to the whole process, to achieve what you've just reached. Otherwise what would be the point in the whole pill popping, genital removing business? I'm kind of envious that you got there this quick, although I have occasional glimpses of that as well, so I guess I'm on my way as well.

[stephaniec]

That's kind of the point to the whole process, to achieve what you've just reached. Otherwise what would be the point in the whole pill popping, genital removing business? I'm kind of envious that you got there this quick, although I have occasional glimpses of that as well, so I guess I'm on my way as well.

I think of it more as genital enhancement

[mrs izzy]

You have just started.

Hope you and your therapist have talked about how to handle all the changes that will come.

There are hard times and good times to yet come.

Not everything is going to be seen through rose colored glasses.

You already have said about your job and being female. Have you a plan.

You already said about your apartment complex. Have you a plan.

When you become that girl, Have you a plan.

A lot will be hitting your plate here faster then you can handle so just make sure you have a plan.

[FalseHybridPrincess]

They call it a disorder because when you have gender dysphoria you cant function in your everyday life etc etc

[JohannaJohn]

Do I have "physical" confusion?  Not for much longer, if at all...

Just because people looking at me frequently see a male, doesn't at ALL mean that I am confused...

My heart is clear and free...

And my growing breasts, soft skins, and great new hair simply manifest more and more my mental reality.

Does this strengthen my so-called "mendical disagnosis"?  Maybe so, but this matter little to me.

Mentally i am clear as a bell, and the physical reality as I stroke my breasts and tingling nipples and tingling hair, tell me that I have a "congruity of freedom" -- finally!

Johanna.

OMG me too! wrote Evelyn


My dear Evelyn, Our feelings are clear, and identical.  SO happy you UNDERSTAND how I feel...

Johanna.

[JohannaJohn]

Just to be clear, the new DSM does not call it Gender Identity Disorder. It is now called Gender Identity Dysphoria, mainly because just being trans is no longer seen as an illness, but the confusion it can cause is seen as a factor in other mental disorders like depression.

So true, Liz Marie.  I am not ill.  I am my true self now.  I am free, and soon will manifest this freedom more and more in my daily life in the real world.



Johanna.

[JohannaJohn]

They call it a disorder because when you have gender dysphoria you cant function in your everyday life etc etc

Princess, then, what we must do of course, is to adjust our everyday life to match our true selves...

Not necessarily easy, perhaps especially in my case on employment things, but now "comng out" to more and more people makes this more and more 'congruend" with my female inside...

And my nice nice breasts, small but growing fast, simply "announce" like bright headlights, what my gender is.

Johanna.

[JohannaJohn]

You have just started.

Hope you and your therapist have talked about how to handle all the changes that will come.

There are hard times and good times to yet come.

Not everything is going to be seen through rose colored glasses.

You already have said about your job and being female. Have you a plan.



You already said about your apartment complex. Have you a plan.

When you become that girl, Have you a plan.

A lot will be hitting your plate here faster then you can handle so just make sure you have a plan.

My dear Isabell, Your shining years of experience as a girl give me inspiration, and your words are very down-to-earth and practical.

YES, maybe more will be hitting my plate than I can handle all at the same time...

It is just the employment and client aspects that are the most critical.

At my apartment building, I can handle fine I think.

My cis gf already accepts me.

So does my daughter, at least to the stage I have come out to her, so far.

Your words of wisdom and years of experience at this, have really helped my though processes just.

Thank you for understanding me so very well.

A warm embrace,
Johanna.

[JohannaJohn]

Disorder, confusion? Nah, probably not. I am no longer confused and order seems to be restored.

The pain, when I see the man in the mirror, is very real though. The agony of being talked to as if I were a dude, is most certainly clear and present. It's something, but disorder and confusion it is not.

I want to feel free, and go full-time just as soon as I can work out some issues related to employment.  That is probably my most critical job ahead...

I agree Mikaela, it IS something..."but disorder and confusion it is not."

Right on, girlfriend!

Johanna.