Still afraid of being myself. Help appreciated!

[NatalieT]

Ok, so this is probably going to sound weird, but I still haven't really let any of my femininity ooze to the surface. I'm going to be getting my first appointment for HRT hopefully next month, but I still haven't really accepted myself yet.

For example, I still feel like I'm on high alert, and I don't want people to think I'm a freak by not acting masculine, even though it kills me inside still living like I'm a normal boy.

What can I do to just, as the song goes, "let it go" and get on with it? I still feel a great sense of shame and guilt for being this way.

Hugs,

Nat x

[mrs izzy]

You where born this way and had nothing to do with the fact you have this birth condition.

Society makes it bad, GD is not a bad thing. It is just a natural occurrence that happens in birth sometimes.

Now is your time to fix what nature has made a mistake.

Everyone says it is a choice. It is only a choice to live with the pain or choose to stop it and live a genuine life that was robbed at birth by over growth of genitalia.

Hugs.

[suzifrommd]

What can I do to just, as the song goes, "let it go" and get on with it? I still feel a great sense of shame and guilt for being this way.

There is nothing to be ashamed of or guilty about. You didn't ask to be trans. You were born that way.

I'm proud of being trans. We overcome challenging obstacles and we succeed on both sides of the gender divide.

Don't know if you're religious, but might help to pray to have your shame removed and for pride in being yourself. If you (like me) are not sure about God, pray to your inner strength. I find it works just as well.

Welcome to transdom, Natalie. We are the greatest people on earth.