I think it has taken me a while to figure out how I was feeling about my body becuase my body looks generally androgynous. I run almost everyday and stay away from weights. I have always wanted to be skinny and be curvy between waist and hips. For the past few years I mistook muscle for fat and thought that if I ran it off it would be ok. I have very light body hair and it looks as if my legs have already been shaven (my ex asked me that). Even though I am 18 now, my facial hair is still peach fuzz. I'm a lucky blonde lol.
Some things that bother me are my feet (I'm only a size nine but they look like clown feet), my huge chest and back, and my face. I have not been liking how my face has been looking becuase I look more and more of what I would refer to as "cave man" features. It's like my youth is being taken away. I'm becoming more boxy. I feel like my emotions can no longer be expressed through my face. Like I have to become more cold.
Another thing that confuses me is that I like to orgasm. When I first found out about mastrubation (12 yrs old), I would have full body, mind-blowing orgasms. I no longer get them though. I wonder it it's from the testosterone?
I am seeing a clinical psychologist but have only seen him twice and haven't had the chance to really express my problems (we've been doing paperwork and general history). I'm wondering if he would be able to diagnose me and help me find an endocrinologist? I don't think he has a PhD.
