alright, today i woke up to a call that offered me an appointment at a gender identity clinic in charing cross in 2 days, and since i've been waiting for nearly a year, i just couldn't drop it.
thing is, i live with un-accepting parents - my father has threatened to disown me if i go through with a transition, and my mother's not far behind. i started thinking about what i could actually do at this clinic. i can't start injections because the rate of the changes would be too quick and too easily noticeable, but i was wondering if i'd be able to take a low dosage of T gel instead? i would be hoping for minor changes, probably mainly mentality-wise, but i can't find any information on this specific aspect of gel. does it matter how low a dosage i take? will the changes still be obvious enough that my parents will inevitably notice? i honestly fear for my well-being if so, but the thought of waiting another year (or possibly more since i'm moving out of london in '15) kind of destroys me.